When she had finally decided to try to function, Phoebe had made coffee and sat outside for a very long time. She felt so empty inside. With tears in her eyes again, she reached for the phone and dialed a number.
"Grams? It's Phoebe."
Hearing her voice, Phoebe went inside and crumpled onto the couch. "Grams, I'm chasing so many shadows in my mind, and the light that used to guide me, I'm not sure if I can trust in it any longer." She shook her head as tears slipped down her cheeks. "I don't know if I can be just what I am, I know you said I needed to find my way and be true to what I see and feel, but it's all so messed up now."
"There was this party last night and
Cole and I dressed up. I was a temple dancer, and he was an angel. Grams! Be nice... please? Anyway,
we got to the private party at the party and ran into some old friends. Everything was going well and I went wandering. I found
CJ, you remember me telling you about her? We talked and we danced. She's just as wonderful as ever."
Phoebe wiped her eyes, listening to her Grams. "After awhile,
I ran into Jonathan, a friend from high school. We danced and got caught up on things. It was really nice to see him, Grams. I also spent some time
talking with Aziraphale. He and James are both here Grams and I start work in Aziraphale's teaq shoppe next week."
She sniffled. "This is where it gets bad, Grams. I was wandering the gardens and
I ran in to an old friend. No, you don't want to know and no, you wouldn't approve. He promised a few things a long time ago, and last night was the first time I had seen him in five years. I kissed him. Yes, I know I shouldn't have, but I did. He was a bit shocked to see me and he told me why. After talking to him for a bit,
I went to find Cole and
he took us home where we proceeded to get in to a fight and... he walked out."
Phoebe swallowed. "I don't know where he went, Grams, but I don't think he's coming back. He hates my friend and he's a bit jealous of him, I think. My friend used to go out of his way to hurt Cole. Grams, I don't want to be in love with anyone else. I'm in love with Cole... I even got him a ring. No, he never saw it."
After awhile, Phoebe nodded. "I love you, too, Grams. I'll let you know when I have news on Prue."