oh corey. i know the feeling all too well. but look at it this way: nobody wants a relationship to start halfway through their senior year because when it comes time to leave for college, its gunna hurt that much more. and the fact is that most relationships deteriorate once at least one party goes to college anyway. its the cold hard reality of it. but look how much other oppurtunity is out there once you get to rutgers, my ex, dillon was always too shy and too close a friend to get the girls he wanted. now that hes at college, hes got a gf and 4 other cute girls who practically follow him around. things will get better, i promise. you just need to be positive about it (i cant believe this is coming from me) but really, its the only way youll get through it. god, every place i go in this damn town i think of john. you cant expect it to just stop, you just need to think about how much oppurtunity there is for you next year. least thats how im coping
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awww corey..its good to get ur feelings flowing and out, effusiveness has screwed me over many a time, but @ least i know what when & why im feeling u kno?...guys never do that..thats probably why they get heart attacks and die ;)---but yea i kow what u mean, by "I know I keep telling people I cant wait to go to Rutgers. It's true, I really am psyched to be going there, but I guess in a way, it's me saying, 'I cant wait to get away from my angsty high school problems'"...like im sooo gonna miss everyone & the spiffy atmosphere, but we're all like walking bagladys w/ all the history and baggage we have b/c of said history w/ ppl..and in many ways it sux b/c half the time u can only see ppl in one light just cus of one or 2 isolated incidents, when in actuality they're multifaceted. just so much stuff..and that clean slate of college is gonna be scary but it will feel soo good
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I dont think it's adolescent at all to feel the way you do..most people (unless of course they're in a perfect, beautiful, fullfilling high school relationship) feel the way you do, shit I know I feel that way 97.34% of the time. Only a few more months and you can start the fuck over.
And yes, lonliness is a bitch. A bitch who deserves to die.
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...i dont know if that makes sense but i just read this and thought ugh. yes. : (
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And yes, lonliness is a bitch. A bitch who deserves to die.
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