The mere thought of you sends me in a tizzy!! I get all worked up and mad. I want to scream at you. Tell you how it is. You will go away with your nose up in the air like always. You know your better than me and I know it to. But somewhere deep inside me all i want is a single word of kindness from you. I want you to be one tenth affected by me as ( Read more... )

Missed opportunity...lost again...thought things change...but who am I again?

Its 5am and I am watching the snow fall. Its cold deadening blanket envelopes the city. My nose is freezing and my ears seem deaf. It makes me feel like im the only person alive in the whole world. I drink my coffee and thank god I dont have any reasons to go outside. A plow drives by breaking the silence, but only after a seconds the silence ( Read more... )

Relasp..relasp...relasp...I have lost it ...help..............but no on e must know.............

Somewhere far deep inside and pass the point of my conscience a little piece of the old me still exist. Her flame has grown dark and almost to the point of being extinguished. I forget about her most of the time. Once in a while usually when I am alone, she weakly and briefly sparks back. a while back this roar of a flame would consume me and drive ( Read more... )

I am tired of being compared to my mother. I am not her!! People have a problem with her so they take it out on me. She has to put her toxins all over anything that I have good. I am so tired and scared right now I am sick and having panic attacks. I am soooo stressed out right now. I dont need this shit. I know no one knows what the hell I am ( Read more... )

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Yesterday I was admitted into the hospital around 2:30pm for contractions. They kept injecting me with a medication to stop my contractions and finally slowed them enough to go home at 9:30pm. They also gave me my first shot of steroids to help mature the babies lungs if I go soon. I have to return at 8:30pm tomorrow for the other one ( Read more... )

I am thinking about getting rid of my journal. I am never on here anymore and the few people that I am friends with on here are never on anymore either. I dont know I think I will sleep on it.


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