My doctor says I need to start a journal about why I am such a nervous person and get to the "root" of the problem and work on myself. So....here it goes ( Read more... )

Forgetting the fact, that most of my closest friends can see these posts, I like to have my feelings out in the open for them to see. Probably because I know none of them are actually reading them anyways. So what is the difference if I write on here instead of in a journal anyways? Maybe it will give them an idea of how I am feeling. What I still ( Read more... )

One day. The image of how you looked laying there....will be gone from my mind. At least, that is what I keep telling myself. I keep thinking that the guilt, fears, crying, nightmares, stress, all of it will disappear. One day. People have long forgotten about it, but not me. I can't. It replays over and over in my head, day in and day out. Will it ( Read more... )

Well....I found my blurty journal. I even remembered my password and got into it. I must say, I miss that girl. The girl who was so carefree and full of sarcasm and floated from one friend to the next. What happened to that girl ( Read more... )

I am finding it harder and harder to appreciate people. All I do is give and I hardly get anything in return. Its very frustrating. I just wish that I had a group of friends who would WANT to hang out with me. There is one thing I am excited about though. I applied to go to college in New York City! I am very excited and I hope I get in. I wouldn't ( Read more... )

I'm trying to keep a positive, upbeat attitude towards my whole experience with my foot. Unfortuntely I am getting antsy on the third day and I have to endure 7 and half more weeks of it. The only thing I am looking forward to right now is my vicodin because that means after I take it I will no longer see daylight for the next 12 hours. If that's ( Read more... )

it's a good thing noone reads these anymore...well maybe who knows if you do. but i need to talk about stuff but honestly there is noone to talk to anymore. well...lets see..aside from the fact that i made the biggest mistake of my life, there is a lot going on with me lately. 3 months ago...3 months? im pretty sure yea...anyways. 3 months ago i ( Read more... )

I am totally moving to adult Gap as soon as Diana (one of my managers) leaves. She is due June 9th but her doctor told her she has to leave in the middle of May. I used to love working at BabyGap but now I dread going there. I have this one manager who shall remai9n anonymous that drives me anhd my co-workers NUTS! Lately she has been really rude ( Read more... )

Hm...what to say? I haven't updated this thing in a LONG time ( Read more... )

I haven't updated this thing in a while but I really have nothing to talk about, lol. Has anyone got their christmas shopping done? i got like three things for my mom. I know what I am getting Charles, Karen, and Tiffany...I just need my paycheck to do that, lol. I still don't know what I am getting my brother (Bobby). Hm ( Read more... )