[Real post; April 24th, 2009 ( Read more... )

Yesterday was interesting ( Read more... )

I failed out of community college and my uncle asks me WHY I don't want to go ahead and pursue a medical degree to become a full fledged veterinarian? I could barely read the workbook we had for class, I can't be trusted with realass medical shit. Same fucking thing as becoming a doctor, dildo. You're an ass for even asking me "whhhhhy". Sit down ( Read more... )

Maybe he realized he made a mistake.

Awesome.

I FEEL AWESOME.

Is it so much to ask to be told if someone is going to flake out on me again? Or should I have known that because it's happened with him before..?

There's always the possibility he was playing me from the get-go. Oh well.

Why did he have to make me think he ever liked me again?

Why did I have to fall in love with people who never even dream of being with me? Why did I let him fuck me before he even liked me? If he ever liked me. He certainly didn't love me. He says I'm his friend but it seems like I'm taking the blame for something that was both our faults. And then why do I still seek his comfort from the pain he caused ( Read more... )

Either you don't/can't possibly understand how I feel, and how much I love you.

Or you don't want to...

I'm running out of things to say.. Running out of excuses to find.. I'm running out of reasons why I should keep on trying to be here much longer.

Been feeling rather confused lately.. Well, that's no surprise. My head is fighting with my heart. It sucks. I'm not sure if breaking free would fix the problem. I would just be lonely as ever and miserable because he probably wouldn't even be my friend. I would even risk alienating him from our other friends or ..myself from what little friendship ( Read more... )

Today was my dad's birthday. I suppose it went better than it could've..I just wish I had more green to comfort me. I'm not exactly going out of my way to make him dinner and cake but I was very upset when he complained about it being 9:30 and the cake had not yet been served.. More than that though, he heard me curse and ASSUMED it was about me ( Read more... )

There's nothing you can quite say to someone you've said sorry to someone a million times over. What can you say but sorry when you've hurt them? There's nothing you can do to heal them ( Read more... )

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