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[tentuxius]

Not updated for a while. Thought I'd give it a go, to bridge the gap in recorded life since my last entry. In some ways life has been changing and developing in many ways, but in some respects has stayed exactly the same. My new job at Kings High School as a technician, for example, is quite a massive change. It's an interesting job with plenty of

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[lucid_existance]

Friends, they really are hard to find these days, seems like everyone else is out for themselfs unfortunetly!

I hope your outlook picks up and I suppose, If you need a chat, Im pretty new to here, byt Im sure il be around..

Violet

[tentuxius]

They are hard to find. I always think what a "friend should be?" to myself... I consider those values and put them, as best as I can, to practice. I try to be involved in their lives, however I can. Occassionally phone, visit every now and then. I'll even do some very generous things. I can't think of anyone who's ever put themselves out for me. I can't think of someone who's tried hard and made sure that their actions shout out "I'm your friend and I love you". I've heard it said, but talk is cheap! Ahh well... I know it sounds like complaining. But it's dispair!

I'm always hoping for a better outlook, but I know I've got to try for it. I do have to put myself out into that cesspit and get dirty and see if I can find some diamonds in the depths. It won't be nice, but maybe it's just neccessary.

Thanks for the offer of a chat. All of my friends are unavailable for chatting *rolls eyes*.

[lucid_existance]

Well, looking at it as you are going into the dirt and cesspit, as in your going under what you would normally do to actually find a friend wont be helping, everyones on the same level out there, just not on the same level of intelligence or on a hobby level, but the good ones are there, its just very hard to find as I believe that they have been burned to many times by others to actually put themselfs out there for a friend.

I wouldnt say I have many friends myself, but id rather be one that has one or two than a bunch of people I just know, but yes even thats hard to find..

Sorry to hear your friends are "unavailable"

[tentuxius]

You're probably right. But I don't expect to find an excellent best-bud type of friend out there. I don't know what to expect. People find other people in this life. Gotta do it some how.

[pottiepete]

I recognise the symptoms: reckon I've managed to bore all my old friends to death by becoming so old and cynical. I have had very close relations initially with schoolfriends and subsequently with my partner. Tell you what though, I waited bloody ages for a partner to come along

[pottiepete]

Sorry, ignore the last three words...

I've just seen that you're only 20. I had you down as mid-30s. Bloody 'ell lad. You're just worrying too much. Make contacts at work and if you go to Uni next year, just relax and don't stress about things.

I believe the young people these days say "chill". You're a generation or two out of your depth. Are your parents older than other kids of your age group?