hi
the farther away from here the better it gets
i am always getting played like a fool
and i play the ones like fools
confusion is my best bet
love is lost

i am almost there.
just a few more light years
and my tears will dry
the torn corners will mend
im drowning myself in music

hatekiller1: im writing a email im as slow as a snail i got a brain block so i point my glock at the comp let those pistol clips drop the barrel is smoking my computer is now broken fuck im not even jokin ( Read more... )

Invisibility is my best disguise
if i talk to you i love you
if you see me i like you
like fall out boy says i keep my jealousy close
i do. and i keep it right in my back pocket
i am nothing but me
depression is just like yesterday
it is there when it wants to be
pills make it better sometimes
im leaving less than a year
im ready
are you?

the kingdom looks down upon me
i am clueless to what it sees
the harder i look the higher it gets
crippled hands are resourceful
when the easy gets tough
it wasnt long before i started missing
the last month or the one before that
im looking ahead right now
it is the least i can do
the flowers smell prettier
the faces are brighter
my heart grows

im a clean slate

i have been gone for a month. Away from everything that i despise. Ive changed. for the better? id say so. im still confused like always. i left home with things in twists. i lost most of the things i cared about. a friend. im always losing those and i never seem to find them again. im sorry for the way things end up. but i never regret anything. i ( Read more... )

i never want to go back. Deep in my heart i have found my new home. i dont miss hardly anyone with a few exceptions to some. i am on my own. traveling through different countries. i am meeting new people with hearts and honesty. America may be rich and powerful but we lack soul, emotion,love, happiness. we are so selfcenter its sickening. i have ( Read more... )

Each day i wake up and make it worse for myself. Whether I say something wrong. Or make a complete idiot out of myself. I am one of those people who dont think before they act. Im eventually going to be the one who you all hate. It is my fate. Stop being so forgiving i tell myself. Stop being so caring. You all use me for it. IM a target practice ( Read more... )

im leaving in about 2 days. out of the country.
hopefully i tragically dont come back.