goin' to new york tomorrow. my eyes are burning. i'm sleepy. party on saturday!

be there or be square.

the speed of the beats and the bumps. i can't feel my feet or my hands or my arms in the arm chair or the smoke from the cigarettes she's smoking. and the bottle empties itself down my throat. i'm twisting the cap on and off. and i'm killing on the side, and laughs are coming at me. a different story behind my teeth. behind these eyes, under this ( Read more... )

i left peggy's house today, this afternoon. i drove back to hamtramck. it's so green. more green than i realized. it makes me think of D.C. and then i'm home and i forgot my key and i sneak through the window. but the indians next door don't know me and they think i'm breaking in. i reassure them this is my house. these are my things. and i jump ( Read more... )

i still have polka-dots in my eyes. "it's a sign of being in love," she says to me, and i can feel her breath on my face. i thought maybe i was drunk, but it's just love. i thought maybe i was dying, but she pulled me out of this sinking shit-hole in this sinking city. while i'm sitting with the windows open and the wind leaking in, i'm recalling ( Read more... )

where have i been ( Read more... )

i have dirty hands, i need to wash them. i need to wash my whole body. spring cleaning all around. and so it's been lately... good. sleeping in my bed sometimes, closing the blinds and sweat on my pillow. i play my guitar more, i read less, i drive more, i drink more or less. i haven't seen the sun rise, but watched it set. i haven't eaten alone in ( Read more... )

noodz, that's funny ( Read more... )

paid 600 dollars in bills today, paid 500 dollar tickets yesterday ( Read more... )

morning, coughing, spitting, not moving, worrying.

i need health insurance.

it's laundry day. clean the soiled clothes, get the cigarette smell out, wash the wine away.

new favorite thing: the spring air.

and i'm not drunk right now. first time in many days, sober at 11:30. and i still can only think of one thing. all day, over and over. wednesday, wednesday, wednesday ( Read more... )