So on saturday at spring fling i broke my glasses, so i've been wearing contacts every day since... Well, so heres the thing, my eye now is all blood shot and inflected and has one of thsoe random bumps on it.. so i cannot put my contacts in today.. which means i cannot drive, i cannot read . study for my finals/ i cannot do anything becuse my life ( Read more... )

UM! so ive been so friggin stupid.. All the signs were there.. he's dating someone else... I should of friggin known... I get it now.. i get the whole thing! fuck this ( Read more... )

I'm stalling on a paper. I've realized that it keeps getting closer to the anniversary of Andy's death.. it kind of freaks me out. it's been almost 2 years. it's been exactly 2 years since Jamie came to me crying in study hall, and expressed that Andy was extremely ill this time... It's weird.. Like the fact that he's gone... It feels like not that ( Read more... )

*My body hurts so badly right now... It aches like ive been hit by a truck... no i feel like ive been hit by a truck, trampled by a herd of elephants, run over by a stampeed of bulls and buffolos and kicked repeatedly by kangaroos.. i know i have a wild imagination but i am that sore right now... why the hell does my body feel like this.. ive been ( Read more... )

okay... so sometimes i just can't shake what happened... So like i love my friends here to death dont get me wrong, they are amazing and i know they would never intentionally hurt me, but if you think about it with my old friends i was pretty much mentally abused for 13 years and it's hard to move away from that. I mean i was told how to think for ( Read more... )

I thought i was strong enough to go back to just being friends, I'm not. It took everything i had to not grab your hand last night and hold it. this is horrible that i feel this way. I shouldn't have to be so weak and need you so much. Why do I? I've never felt this way about anyone before. it's like i hate you more than anything right now, but all ( Read more... )

When i was little, my heart broke for the first time ever. I was 4 and my best friend was 3. She was deaf and had a lot of other medical problems. We were the best of friends though, i would tell her stories, and even though she couldn't hear me, she would smile and we would laugh about silly things, and we would always have a good time together ( Read more... )

-um, so i have 6 days left of work- 4 days this week, and then 2 days the following week, and then i have my doctors for more shots on tuesday this week, my eye doctors tuesday of next week, and praxis on friday the following week. :( But then its back to school 2 weeks from (this)  tuesday!!!!!!!! I cannot wait to go back and be with shannon, ( Read more... )

so things are good.. im home, and already missing everyone, but sarah comes home tomorrow and things are looking up here ( Read more... )

so i am like in wicked like with this boy, and it sucks because i know i am not suppose to be... he's off limits and im not suppose to like him... But i can't help it, he's a nerd, a jock, and a wicked cutie ( Read more... )