the calm is enhanced by the storm

[test_rider]

seeing that the problem was nothing unsuitable for my level of mental stress i seem more aware of the problem and see that it is reversable. no booze no smokes and no foods of the catalytic nature, i do anyway for now. tuesday the tests will be completed and a process of internal healing will begin,till am feeling empty from the lesser of the

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[blood_and_vodka]

thank you for not listening to your drunken nature, and i hope things r reversible and my chains shouldnt hold u down as they do me and muh pain should only be beared by me i would not wish it upon anything (unless it wuz muh aunt jaye LoL)...and never forget the difference between realality and fantasy as much as we would like to live in a fantasy world we cant but we can always live in the shadows and if i had muh choice id live in your shadow any day...

I love u soo much and hopefully ill talk to u soon

Love u always
¤LiL SaMyE¤

P.S

The Stars are starting to shine just a lil brighter dont u think¿?

the lights are getting a little sharper to my eyes

[test_rider]

i am starting to see a little more clearly now and i have feeling that i may not fail for the first time ever, but how quickly change can undo the train of thought. your guidance has been nothing but uncompromising care. for that i will gladly bear any pain you have.

[blood_and_vodka]

hey whuts goin on nm here i have a question, r u mad at me?, but yea you told me to get on the net so i am if i did ne thing to piss you off im sry Love you always

Samye

never

[test_rider]

i could never be mad at you. i got on the net at 12:45 but you weren't on and mike has been lockin his shop down and evin's comp is a gay. i luv you too and i am not mad at you i just have been thinkin a lot about some things and i don't know if what i am doing is the right thing for me right now and i am goin back home soon too. some things are changing in my life again but i aint changing and i don't know what i am supposed to do. no matter what though i am here for you and that doesn't change. you have showed me new light and made me feel better when i was in difficult times and i will always love you for that. and i miss you like hell. and i wanna talk to you again i enjoyed our time on the phone today although it wasn't our usual 8hr talk i still enjoyed it. i love you and i miss u.