I have found what my life was lacking. love. without it i felt as though nothing i did mattered. i cared, but was without focus. Now i know. I love her more than life itself. i hope to never lose her. people try to stop this from happening, but they can't stop me from feeling this way. I said i could never love or care for just one person in ( Read more... )

because i have never experienced true love i am to be blinded by what it could be like. in this season it is the time when boredom is mistaken for lonliness and is searched out through finding a partner. don't be mistaken, its ok to be alone and without a signifigant other as long as you have close friends who care about you. i can never be too ( Read more... )

when the light is refracted from the lens something is different. There are no words to explain the new feeling yet. it is so different from all the emotions i have ever experienced yet good and bad at the same time. i am afraid of the appearance, but relieved that i could see it as did others. entrusted to my vision from the aid of my existance ( Read more... )

what am i doing? what the fuck is goin on. the patterns of tracting circumstance are confusing me again. i am tied to a tree with out a hand of faith. is this the right thing to to do? i feel i may be encasing myself in a box filled with sorrow and despair. it feels good to know, but will it feel good to know.....the emptiness is still consuming ( Read more... )

seeing that the problem was nothing unsuitable for my level of mental stress i seem more aware of the problem and see that it is reversable. no booze no smokes and no foods of the catalytic nature, i do anyway for now. tuesday the tests will be completed and a process of internal healing will begin,till am feeling empty from the lesser of the ( Read more... )

i will stand as strong as i can only for the sake of others. my will weakens and my health fails it seems, but there is always hope now. but in the event that i can't stand any longer i will out my luv to the help that did all they could. i have been in a constant state loss and have learned that you can't always win....almost never does the ( Read more... )

when you do unto others you get a response in a likeness or feeling that may represent what you have given. i know because i suffer the from the past. every action gives us a a different approach to the end result. where am i heading this day and to the next and so on. to bring the old back is a common mistake made for me every waking moment. ( Read more... )

i lye down to look for a slumber. i look for the forbidden quiet. with all the clatter in my head it screams to my disatisfaction. will it not let me be? some how i wake during the light. there is no rest for the wicked. is that my cursed past bleeding my new ways. escape would be such a peacful endeaver. come short just a fraction of what i ( Read more... )

with out a mating link there can be no chain. my chain has few links, but for those who are drug into the tug of chaos it is endearing to think i could have support. lest the weak should break there will be a link to support me. one that is as brittle and rusty as i, but still holding the banister that crosses unforgiven from retribution. i ( Read more... )