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feels of belonging
this is a religion-related post, mind you. seeing my friends, maybe this might be triggering ( Read more... ) -
why can't I be ever fucking pleased?
it's something of an old, old, problem ( Read more... ) -
subject
hi. so I'm writing again. thought to myself a while back that I didn't need to post on lj anymore. turned out I was wrong. so here I am, as emo as ever ( Read more... ) -
temptation
I've never been this tempted to hurt myself. to cut. to see blood streams from my arm. to see my body can be more hurt than my heart and mind ( Read more... ) -
yeah.
I feel like my feelings are piled up, it chokes down my throat, I can't even barely hold it anymore- I don't care if it's because of my PMS or what, but I just wanna show how my feelings for you- yes you, the one I linked, has developed, from the simplest form of friendship, to what you can call crush, to this kind of feeling where everything is ( Read more... ) -
distrustful
I don't know if I'm being too distrustful or what, I always want to take one step back from my beloved one, because I don't want to get hurt once she dumped me from the sky. because I know everything will not go as lovey dovey as I think it would be. because what am I to her? I don't know anything about her. I'm not her close friend, she won't talk ( Read more... ) -
insecure
so... I went to bad 2 days. the first day was when she (you know who she is) doesn't reply to my chats, and I was kinda in moodswing, so I overthought it. I really regret overthought it, because I was lost in my mind and after that when she replied my chats I undirectly scolded her. what I thought when I was in moodswing was particularly everything ( Read more... ) -
2012 messages for people who changed me.
finally 2012 has come to its end, huh? it's almost 2013. I really wish that 2013 will be a waaaaaay better than 2012. I had so much difficulties this year, and I changed a lot since then. and here are messages for those.
dear my junior high mates,yo. we've been together since 2010/2011 but I think this year is the most memorable. I used to be some ( Read more... ) -
year of breakdowns.
I hate writing stuffs like this, seriously.
but I just have to. because LJ is like, the only place where I can type everything I want. well, I often write things like this, but I set it to private. but I won't this time. not that I'm being an attention whore, but I just want people to read this so they can understand how I feel. because telling ( Read more... ) -
Joker Smiles.
it is such a good, great song and it's a shame that I can't find romaji version of it so here it is.
Lyrics: Don/どん
Composer: Don/どん
Song: Hatsune Miku/初音ミク
Nico Link | Youtube | MP3 | Off Vocal
( Joker Smiles. )