Um well i dont know why im eveing doing this but maybe cuz i do it for my self. Well it seams like im alway be going to school and well i just want to get it all over with and more on to bigger and better things. Well its the week end i just went to downtown to get out a little. In a couple mouths i have to help my cusin move to her new place just ( Read more... )

Ok its been a long time so here it is. I have been down been up but theres only one why to go from here, and thats to the top.In life you will have friends to help you and some that will alway disapoint you. I have leared to deal with that and just move on and not think about it. I am who I am and no one will get the best of me. I was so close to ( Read more... )

Well ya umm dont worry people. I know death is not a funny thing but i just have to laugh in my situation im in with it and just live for what i got. Most likly it will happen agean but i just dont know. It my kill me next time but just like the song by tim live life you where dying. I just look at my life and laugh cuz there nothing els i can do. ( Read more... )

The drastic steps I'm takin'
Are just an act of desperation
I knew no one would miss me
So what the hell
I fought and lied I drank too much
Hurt every one I ever touched
Just how much I hurt you is hard to tell
This is not some kind of cry for help
Just good bye I wish you well
Because I love you
I have to kill myself

it all ends here

ya I have had enough of this type of life and I have see what the world has to offer. Im just sick of it and thats all i can say. I wish for some things mostly for others and i wish it would all end.

I just need to get some things out just for my self cuz theres is just so much in my head as of now. I dont know what im going to do as of now there are to many ?'s that have no reason. The only thing i do know is that im going to make the one of biggest Decisions in my life real soon. Its not going to be easy but as of now im just trying to get ( Read more... )

gerrrr what els can go wrong in the next couple days. Im so pissed and idk what the hell im going to do. Whent to the doctors today and going there tomarrow and the next day. My body is all fucked up now. gerrrrr I think i found the best diet there is cuz i lost 17lb in four days ( Read more... )

This weekend got too see every one but things are not the same and all. Things have changed and i dont know if there for the better or worse. Theres only one way to find out and thats the hard way. Well im going to hang out with Adam today and try to have a good time. I got to do to the doctors for my Cardiomyopathy and some othere crap that i dont ( Read more... )

Well today was not tobad but not too fun. Had all my classes today but got all of them done by 2pm. After all that came home had come food and went to the campus doctor to try to get some doctors names around here. I need to go back to get my heart looked at agean. Then came back home and went to sleep for 2 hours till dinner and had so china food ( Read more... )