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I still feel our bodies laying in that field, though I know it to be foolish to have bottled this memory. Perhaps other bodies laid in that field, perhaps dead or dying, two hundred years ago, bloating on a once beleaguered grassy vantage over a coeval and noble cause. It is even possible, I know, that bodies lay in the ground below ours as we were ( Read more... ) -
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On the verge of some good, good things. Now to convince myself to relax a little while they start to happen. -
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Every time my finances come close to being in jeopardy a wall breaks in my brain. I applied for lots of new projects and jobs through my employer, only interviewed for two and both hired other people. There is one project I am wanted for in September but the funding hasn't been approved yet and I am genuinely worried. I have only been able to make ( Read more... ) -
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I'm working on a mental manifesto. It's entirely built around love, and in almost none of the ways I've thought of love in my lifetime. It is tragic, but also magnificent, that only now do I see love's utility in this way ( Read more... ) -
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plunge
"What a shitty place to have a panic attack," I thought, 10 meters under water in 50lbs of scuba gear. But it didn't matter how loud I thought it, or how true it was - I was sucking up the air in my tank like it was melted chocolate and I was Agustus Gloop, my frantic eyes fixed at the rocks covered in purple spikey sea urchins, my body revolting ( Read more... ) -
sweet, sweet vacation!
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As one part of me demands that I confront my feelings and openly mourn, another part pulls me into escapist behavior.
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I'm really letting how much I like him affect me.
Yesterday I spent all day convincing my friend Craig to come over and chat about some problems he's been having. Meanwhile, I find out Justin is going to a show in Ithaca. I resist asking, wanting to stick to my plans. But Craig texts me after work and asks if its ok if he's late for our chat.
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