"Sometimes I think that I could never have you mi subio, and others I feel as though it is meant to be"Alone it's a re-occurring theme in my life. It always comes back like that old joke that everyone but you still thinks is funny. That one joke that becomes more painful to hear everytime. Yeah, I'm a joke ( Read more... )

"Why am I such a good guy sometimes mi subio, why can't I be selfish for once?"Alot of things went down since I last wrote in here. Saturday I went to the industry workshop, which was sorta frustrating. Thats only because the thing started a hour and a half late. Not only that, but every panelist that spoke seemed like they were speaking about the ( Read more... )

"I've realized I'm not a selfish person mi subio. Your owner is nothing without you. The best I can do for you is show him how to take care of you and love you as I would."Today was a long day. I did alot more thinking about where I am right now and I'm still undecided. I hit a real rough spot today when I talked to my friend about his girl and the ( Read more... )

"You've made it clear mi subío that you're tired of that dark gloomy corner. Why can't you be mine?"I don't understand myself sometimes. I had a long talk with my girlfriend yesterday. Yes my girlfriend, and she explained everything that happened. I hate this, but I actually want to forgive her. Part of me wants to keep her, while the other part of ( Read more... )

"What if that rose is all he has. What if it comforts him in his failures. He tells you otherwise, but you know he goes back to it and stares at it for hours and promises to change it's water and to sit it on the windowsill for all to see."I give up. This world is too full of BS. Everyone, everywhere. I'm never safe, so I might as well start ( Read more... )

"Oh rose, my rose, remember me? The one with whom your spose to be."Last night I was very uneasy. It took me forever to get back home after work. I didn't get home until 11:30. However the good news is I found a spot to perform at next week. The five seasons has open mic night on Mondays and I plan on going right after work. I talked to my ' ( Read more... )

"You know how sweet this rose is, regardless of it's vicious thorns that seem to turn others away. In fact, you've held it before and you are willing to grip it's thorns and bleed just to hold it again. mi subió you call it. But no matter how much you want it, it's been tucked away in that dark corner, fed that poisonous water and left to wither ( Read more... )

"She's a single rose carelessly tossed in a vase full of murky water and tucked away in a dark empty corner to wither and fade into nothingness."Today was a pretty good day. It was my first day back with my girlfriend, so my worries were gone for the first time in three weeks. This was a day for the fellas, it's sunday, what should you expect? I ( Read more... )

Hi, for those that haven't read my previous attempt at a live journal, my name is Thomas. I'm just a young black man trying to make something of myself. I goto school full-time at BCCC on Scholarship and I work part-time at ATsystems' Davis street moneyroom ( Read more... )