when will it all just be over?

i think i'm ready to go.

i've said it before and i'll say it again. i just want someone to tell me it's ok to let everything out.

people are fucking stupid and need to mind their own business. fuck you.

sitting on my balcony chain smoking and listening to elliott smith is the only thing that helps.

i feel so alone. nothing will ever change and i will never be able to let go.

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yea.

i wonder how different everything would be had i never worked at disneyland.

this hurts. i am in so much pain.

it's almost 2 am and i have been doing too much thinking for my own good ( Read more... )

today's a very important day for me.
my entire future is hanging on a decision not even made by me.
if it's time to move forward then i just hope i have the strength to get through this.
if it's not, then i will be so unbelievably happy and i will appreciate every moment more than i ever have.
wish me luck.

help me through this...