I dunno why that last one didnt post

[thai_in_yo_eye]

but this one is the true way of how i'm feeling today. I'm lashing out at people because Im utterly sick of nj and the way it has treated me. I'm done I'm fucking done! I have barely any friends (in nj compaired to ma) and they seem further and further away with no car i hate my life sometimes so much so that I cry in secret. I know one of my

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[veraclash]

come take a long island vaca! It's not as bad as Lauren makes it seem. Take the $1 bus. I'm going to MA in the summer, I'll let you know so you can catch a ride.

I hate when things pile up so bad that you loose it. It happens and it sucks, But it will get better :c) I freak out bad when to many things fuck up at once, as well, so don't feel crazy or alone, because it happens to allot of people.

NJ smells...it's NY's arm pit
get out of there :c)

hating life and all...

[thai_in_yo_eye]

well i was able to escape nj for one day and go to ma. even though it was only one day it relieved alot of tension. I'm probably moving to bala soon and rich and i are doing much better. I decided to give him a second chance and although i had put alot of effort into building a wall so i could no longer feel for him I'm slowly regaining my love being in love with him. I was quite honestly not in love with him for quite sometime but i think ill always love him for who he is and all that he has done for me. I plan on getting a job in bala soon but leaving a week or two gap between jobs I need a vacation, one where i have no where special to be and i have minimal responcability just for a little while. i think i'm still in the shock of "I have to grow up now". ttyl