I have no reason to feel as shitty as I do at this moment in life, but I do.

I don't know why I get my hopes up that this year my birthday will be decent and I'll have fun.

25, it was nice knowing ya. 26, here goes nothing...

Everything is amazing, and I'm pretty happy. Haven't felt like this in a long time. If only she wasn't in Florida with the rest of my/our friends, or I wasn't stuck in Jersey...

I may or may not have just killed a bottle of whiskey tonight...

There's no reason I should be this stupid over a girl I've known only a matter of weeks, who lives 2+ hours away.

But she seems to be just as stupid for me.

we'll see where this goes.

#badideas2012

It only seems right that after a week of accomplishment and genuinely enjoying most aspects of my life that the 4 or 5 idle hours of a Friday night alone remind me that I'm not happy, haven't been for some time, nor do I expect to be in the future...

I guess the only way to keep sane is to be too busy to think about keeping sane

that last post reads way more depressed and desperate than I actually am ( Read more... )

these days, they feel like decades
the nights seconds

So, read through some old posts from like 3-4 years ago...came to a post where I mentioned how I had friends over my dorm, including a girl I had a really huge fucking thing for all through sophomore/junior year but never made my move because I have that stupid thing called a fear of rejection...post talks about how we all were watching movies, and ( Read more... )

Up at 1am on a worknight, what's up with me tonight ( Read more... )

a slow walk

the sky greys

a jog

dark blues, pinks

a run

oranges, reds

with all his might

pistons at full steam

attempting to prolong the inevitable

a darkness he can not evade

Alright, it's been two years, but here goes nothing.

I guess I'll just bring everyone up to date on the past two years. December 09 went strict vegetarian/part time vegan after 2 or 3 years bouncing around between eating meat or not. I say part time vegan because I still do have some dairy(usually eggs, cheese, or ice cream), but only a few days out ( Read more... )