so this is my second entry today.... there has been so much shit on my mind....gosh I wish all this could go away right now. I called my brother everything I could think of ( Read more... )

I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about. And she's got everything that I have to live without.He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right, I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night ( Read more... )

The time has come.. where I have been shut out of someones life. The two most important people to me. Brandon first an then my mom. She was picked up today for grand theft auto. The picture on my myspace was the last picture taken with her, I cant even go visit her in prison. Not only does she have that charge but 20 others....my mom is gone for ( Read more... )

oh my god.... i wanna slam my head into a wall right now. I know how he feels now

Wakin up to find another day ( Read more... )

Why don't you want me the way I want you? I can't tell you why I try so hard to be your all. Only thing I can tell you is I want to be the person you are. It hurts me so bad I was never pushed to be that. I look up to you in so many ways possible. I messed up a lot in the past as well as yesterday. All I hear in my head is why me? Why do I do ( Read more... )

I think you can do much better than me ( Read more... )

so its my b day... nothing new i have had 21 now.... an i'm just feeling like a piece of shit cuz i could do so much more with my life... i make my boyfriend hate me 90% of the time. I wish i could be better. i really do. no matter how had i try it just seems like i cant be who i should be. its not his fault...its totally mine ( Read more... )

I'm on the brink I can barely think with all of these thoughts running through my head, Wonderin' if I did you wrong no way, I did you wrong. Every night, I try to justify all the angry things I said Oh but I can't take 'em back no I can't do that ( Read more... )

I am so hurt an upset right now... i never thought that i would fall in love with someone that didnt want me.... things were so different an its killing me. He does not even give a flying shit if im with him on x mas. Now all i have to do is cry. I hate x mas. it will never be the same. this week has been nothing but shit an i cant stop the tears. ( Read more... )