Having one of those days where I just can't seem to motivate myself to do anything, or talk to anyone. Time to write up a life update to try and work myself out of this funk
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Yeah, probably won't get killed or anything. But they might steal our stuff <.< Well, here's to hoping it works out alright! If it's really bad, it'll only be for a year.
I don't understand this behaviour in myself. I mean, maybe there's something about moping around the house and doing nothing that is intrinsically rewarding somehow? (I mean, it DOES get me out of doing things I don't want to do sometimes; and it does usually get me cuddles from Kelly and/or the cats).
Okay, so I can recognize that "moping" is really just a brief episode of mild depression. But that doesn't make it any less irrational. And ironically, the fact that I don't have anything to be depressed about makes it worse XD;
Anyway, I usually just try to work it off. If I keep my brain occupied long enough, I forget that I'm depressed, lol.
I think it's all about the 'sook' factor. Intrinsically I think everyone just hopes to get attention (generally in the form of sympathy) out of the moping. When I mope even after Jason's been trying to cheer me up, it's because I'm hoping that he'll continue giving me more and better attention. If he doesn't (which is the norm, since he's attuned to my foolishness) then we move on to the realm of crankiness, which is a whole other ball game.
Like this stupid house-hunting thing. Every time Jason says something disparaging about a house I like, I'll put a major sook on and pretend that I don't give a fuck about houses anymore. Really, I know that nonsense isn't going to get me what I want (to buy the fucking house), but I can't help doing it anyway because if I can't have what I want, then I want something else (i.e. attention).
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ALL. THE FUCKING. TIME.
I've found myself purposely moping even when Jason is trying super-hard to make me laugh...and then later I turn around and think, man...I'm a bitch.
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Okay, so I can recognize that "moping" is really just a brief episode of mild depression. But that doesn't make it any less irrational. And ironically, the fact that I don't have anything to be depressed about makes it worse XD;
Anyway, I usually just try to work it off. If I keep my brain occupied long enough, I forget that I'm depressed, lol.
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Like this stupid house-hunting thing. Every time Jason says something disparaging about a house I like, I'll put a major sook on and pretend that I don't give a fuck about houses anymore. Really, I know that nonsense isn't going to get me what I want (to buy the fucking house), but I can't help doing it anyway because if I can't have what I want, then I want something else (i.e. attention).
Human nature is retarded. :P
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