I have made...so many ridiculous mistakes in my past...So many of them I hate myself for just a little but...there's nothing I can do about it now. Life just keeps going and all I can do is make sure that the decisions I make in my future are good ones ( Read more... )

you know when you just have that empty feeling in your chest...and you don't know why, but it literally hurts?

...well, i do.

the only way to not be disappointed is to have high hopes for a broken heart.
that's how it always goes. it's what you should just expect from the start.

and the sound of my heart breaking rings in my head. 
it's louder then ( Read more... )

it is an absolutely fantastic day today. i have a break from my mom, and it is lovely outside ( Read more... )

so...my grandma is in the hospital for the third day. she was supposed to get out today, but now they don't know how long they're guna have to keep her. she's having kidney problems, and she's close to kidney faliure. and i'm scared of losing another person i love. and unlike last summer, im scared i'm guna have to go through it alone ( Read more... )

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*breathe*

i am surrounded by drama.
godammit...
i just can't get away.

i should've known that all you'd do is hurt me.
i should've known that it wouldn't be any different this time.
and i should've known that you'd just leave again...
it's what you always do.

i should've remembered how much i would miss you after you were gone.
i should've remembered how much it tore me apart last time.
and i should've remembered that ( Read more... )

i am so glad i'm finally on maternity leave. woot. that started last tuesday. i've just been chillin' since then...you know. heh ( Read more... )

"i did quit smoking ciggarettes and pot, and it was the hardest thing i've ever had to do. but the reason i did it was because i do care about my daughter. (yes, the doctor said 98% girl ( Read more... )

to kate ( Read more... )

so it's like all people can do is piss me off ( Read more... )