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I can't tell you how much this kills me inside. The first person that I ever truely loved, left me. All the fucking time I invested, all the time that I cared and went out of my way for this person. I chose fucking him over someone who I knew could actually treat me right. I chose fucking him. And it kills me inside to know that I lost both of ( Read more... )

I'm so freaking confused.  I finally got him back, and hes being perfect.  He picks me up from work everyday :) I get out at 11 at night and he still comes even when he has work at 5:30 in the morning.  He calls me consistently. Everything is perfect.  But I think I freaked him out. I told him I loved him. And I think I freaked him out. Shouldn't ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do anymore.  I make so many mistakes. I miss him so much and all I want to do is hold him.  He was everything I ever wanted. I just hate how it ended.  I want him back so badly and he wants nothing to do wtih me. Nothing at all and It hurts jsut to hope. He told me to move on and to never talk to him ever again. I just can't ( Read more... )

I've just realized why I like Eliana's parents so much.  Because their the parents I never had. I don't speak to my father at all, and I barely talk to my mother.  It's sad that I need to feel love from someone elses parents.  I've come from a broken home and it jsut sucks. My mother is bipolar or manic depressive or something. My brother is a ( Read more... )

I can't stand it. I can't stand being used. Just hearing that word makes me feel sick to my stomach.  Why did I have to be so gullable?  I believed ev erything he said.  Every word that came out of his mouth was alie.  He looked straight into my eyes and told me he really really liked me.  He called me baby. I think thats what got me. I never had a ( Read more... )

Becuase of this whole mess with Chad, I hung out iwth Devin. I was vulnerable and wanted some kind of fucked up attention I guess. But I realized that Devin is just a fuckign deush bag and I need to never talk to him EVER again.  The whole night he was trying to get in my pants and kept groping me.  He has a fucking girlfriend and I told him I wasn ( Read more... )

I am here once again to bitch about my stupid life. lol. This is the only place where I can really vent to becuase no one reads live journals anymore.  How many more times do I have to be dicked over to finally meet "the one".  I always feel some sort of intution about the current guy I"m invovled with. I usually know when his intentions aren't ( Read more... )

I hate it.  I'm aware of whats really going on, and I choose to ignore it.  I'm one of those "stupid girls" who falls for everything they say.  I feel as if we're secert friends, that everyone is against us.  Everyone thinks that these feelings I have towards him are only from desperation.  But I'm not desperate I have no desire to jump back on the ( Read more... )