Tonight I am putting my doubts aside ( Read more... )

I have never needed to write more...or to get more off of my chest. Lately I have been trying to find something...anything wrong with Matt...Just any reason not to love him. I think I'm just a little scared to commit myself to anyone now. I'm just so afraid of getting my heart broken again. I don't think I could handle it. To add to the fact that ( Read more... )

Mom got mad at me beacause I'm poor and can't afford to fix the car right now. Didn't I say that would probably happen? Someone suggested it was only brake fluid, so I tried replacing that, but it didn't help. I came home and called my mom and told her and she went compltely postal about how she knew this car was a bad idea and blah blah blah! She ( Read more... )

This morning when I picked my friends up to go to school we went to Uni-mart...as usual. They went in and got their breakfast, and came back out and got in the car. We stopped at the stop sign, and while we were waiting to pull out I felt my foot go straight to the floor! My brake line or something is going now, and I have no money to pay for it. I ( Read more... )

Last night he told me that he is falling for meIt made me smile ( Read more... )

I think my moment of slight "insanity" has passed. Things are feeling better and more normal again. I still have the problems that I had written about, but some of them are a little better ( Read more... )

Last night me and my mom were discussing Matty♥ and things. She just out and said "Well people shouldn't know about it for a long time!...like...atleast two years." I about flipped. It made me so mad. Her reasoning was because my grandma will flip out on her. For one it shouldn't be her that my grandmother is flipping out on anyways. She can't ( Read more... )

3 days into his being gone, and I am practically going insane. Last night he text messaged me and asked me what I want from Florida. I have really never had anyone ask me what I want them to bring me back. I told him I didn't know, but later I told him I want a flamingo! He said "haha..k" and now I'm scared to see if he really does bring me ( Read more... )

Yesterday at three o'clock Matty♥ got on an airplane and left for Florida, and at the moment I am hating the place with a passion! He is going to be down there for two and a half weeks! It seems almost absolutly unbearable! I cried on Monday night. It hit me that I wasn't going to get to see him for TWO AND A HALF WEEKS and I couldn't hold back the ( Read more... )

So here I sit, in front of the computer screen wasting my time writing another pointless entry that probably nobody will read, while I have other things that need to be done. I can't seem to break the hold the computer has got on me. It seems to be some sort of addiction...but is there really any name for a person who is addicted to the computer? ( Read more... )