i love my life. i lover my timmy. i love my dog. things are just good ( Read more... )

i lost the greatest love of my life and i dont think i will ever be able to get him back.
im tryin my hardest to focus on myself and make myself into the person i want to be. its hard because he is all i think about. im surrounded by him. everything reminds me of him. i need him so much. i never knew i could be so dependant on someone. everything ( Read more... )

 thurs 6/19..i dont think i really did anything..had the day off from school and work..i think i layed around all day until 4ish. haha ( Read more... )

sat 6/7 i dont really remember what i did in the morning except fight with my mom a lot. tim stayed over from fri nite and then went to work. i ended up goin to jackies party by myself. sucked because everyone was supposed to go with me. and i let everyone know months in advance. but shit happens. so anyway...got to jackies and it was already ( Read more... )

its really horrible the memory i have. really. so as a result if i wanna get back into this writing thing i need to do it more often so its easier to jog my memory. gotten set the time aside and be motivated to do it. so where i left off ( Read more... )

like writing...i need to document more like i used to. i write more now about my emotions and feelings. i need to write about day to day stuff...soo im gonna try to get back into it starting today....

friday was my bday...so i got up and showered. went to look at some cars with my dad. the first guy was ultra shaddy and prob wouldnt be able to sell ( Read more... )

you know the sayin that the apple doesnt fall far from the tree...well i never thought it applied to me. but as i get older and my relationship with tim grows i notice more and more i am like my parents. this is an extremely scary thought for me bc i always said i wouldnt be like them. but anyone that says that will then most likely end up like ( Read more... )

my life has been such a rollercoaster lately. everything is just changing so fast. what i used to know as my life is no longer. to start off i no longer have a car. it really sux. especially since im gettin nothin out of it. firewall is cracked and its not worth fixing. ive had that car for almost 7 years. as much as i hated it i was so comfortable ( Read more... )

i dont write anymore..i duno if its because i dont have time to sit down and gather my thoughts or if its because i dont really have problems that need to be sorted out in writing. either way i kinda miss it. lets talk about the wonderful past nine months. things are better than ever. i am extremely happy that i found someone who i can see myself ( Read more... )

so its that time again...time to make an xmas list of stuff i wont get or will end up buying myself. but for now its keepin me busy.

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