so my mom has been in contact with one of my brothers professors and he had mentioned he wanted to do a ceremony for joe in december. nothing was set in stone but he def wanted to do it. so its now set bc something else wound up being cancelled so we took that opening. and the more i hear about it the more i am so proud of my brother. its not every ( Read more... )

so things have been great for the most part. hit a few bumps in life but u cant give up. at least with tim things are always great. we're goin on 5 months here. serious record for us both. things are just beyond amazing. i cant imagine life with out him. he just fits so perfectly. i just cant wait for the day that we get to spend everyday together ( Read more... )

for the first time in my life i can say that i am truly happy and in love. tim is just so amazzzing in so many ways. i love what he does to me. the way he makes me feel. i love everything about him. we have so much fun when we're together. and when hes gone i miss him so much. to the point that i never knew i could miss a significant other like ( Read more... )

this past week has been seriously awesome. i came home on wed for my bday. and when i got home there were a dozen red rozens and a bunch of lillies waiting for me from tim. and he left the cutest cards in them too. that seriously was the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me birthday or not. so then lauren came over and we went to dinner with my ( Read more... )

its so weird that i know what hes gonna say before he does. its not being predictable...its gettin inside each others head. i love how he looks at me with that smile. i love how we say we have to get back to our normal lives and we can never follow through with it. being on the same wave length totally rocks. i love how we can sit in the car until ( Read more... )

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i wish this rollercoaster of emotions would stop. i woke up this morning not feeling right..emotionally. i had another dream..i cant remember it but i know joe was in it. and i just didnt feel right. i wish i could remember. i miss him sooo sooo much. he would be graduating next weekend. just to think about that kills me. i wish he was here so bad ( Read more... )

its kinda weird to think about why things happen. why u and me? why now? and then i look at things i was gonna do differently that would have totally prevented any of this from being possible. is it fate? im really happy. its so intoxicating sometimes. and for us to have the communication we have is just amazing. being on the same page totally ( Read more... )

when u cry everyday u wonder when will it ever stop. but when it does stop u wonder if you're ok. but when u start cryin again everyday u think u are back where u started but its worse. what do u do then?

do u ever feel like ur gonna forget ur memories? i am soo afraid of that. i feel like i have to write it all down before i forget them. and what about the ones that only me and him knew about. what if i forget...whos gonna tell me now and remind me of those times. its weird but it scares me. i dont want to lose those memories.