Fear

[thatothersteve]

An emotion I've become quite familiar with lately is fear. I find myself these days to be very, very afraid about an increasingly large number of things. Essentially, for the past month, I've been sorting through the wreckage of the life I've lead thus far. I'm looking for the things that are worth keeping and that which must be improved, and it

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[irishreb78]

Wow, weird to come back to LJ after a long time and read this, Steve...I had to go back and read the rest of them to catch up,lol...
I kinda know what you're talking about. I was you about a year ago. It's kinda hard to explain all the details but my best advice is to start taking pleasure in the little things in life again you really enjoy. It's a start.
P.S.-I still have your number in my phone if you haven't changed it since freshman year. If you ever wanna get away from it all, I'm good at distracting people. Call me 772-214-0680
Let me know how it goes...

[austee]

dude, you have more then 3 friends. and not all of them are women

[thatothersteve]

This post looks pretty whiny in retrospect. Your response, however, is spot on. I've just found it very difficult to deal with the flood of emotion this caused for me; I cared immensely. With that said, I'm actually feeling pretty good about my circumstances at this point. I feel like I see clearly what I need to do for myself and I'm becoming satisfied with letting the rest come as it may. In place of fear, I find solace. Peace.

What are you up to nowadays?

[astuted_candor]

lifes a garden, dig it.

[astuted_candor]

Heres what I've learned from the rut that your words have helped pull me out of. In a livejournal or two ago, my life could be explained in one word: FUCK..or two...DAMN IT. You left me comments of encouragement that helped me greatly. So in response to your post here is what I have to say (Besides Joe Dirt's, "Lifes a garden, dig it.")
Take it lightly. Take life as a grain of salt because its funny, it may seem cynical from time to time but its still humorous. What may seem to be a drab of uncertainty, could be a sheet of stability. Don't live in fear because fear haunts the love for living. Cut the lease and live freely. Finding the path to be a man could be found in living life a free man. Live, love and be free, it may be cliche but its true.

[thatothersteve]

After an intense couple of days, between posting and now, I feel that I can heed that advice. With some degree of hindsight (current sight?) it's apparent that I still had some misplaced emotions that just needed to be fucking released. I'm good now. I tend to be on the lighthearted end of the scale normally anyway, and the shcck of this all took me to some pretty dark, scary places that I hadn't visited in years.

I actually like the person I'm developing into. That's more than I can say for most other points in my life. I'm gonna be OK.

Thank you for taking a moment, all three of you, offering some insight. I swear to god, most of the time I'm about as reasonable as it gets :P