I have soooo much to update you guys on!!!I will go in order of when it happened...first of all I have an amazing new boyfriend named micky...he is cute and sweet and just fucking awesome!! next up I adopted the most adorable kitten in the world...she is long haired and grey....Amanda says she looks like a opossum but I think she is perfect!!! and ( Read more... )

I kinda flipped out on someone at work today...they tried to make a joke about me and voices in my head....thats not funny to me..I lost a friend to schizophrenia....I lost him b/c the voice in his head was too strong and I don't think its a cute thing to joke about...he was one of the most intelligent people I have ever known and I can't stand the ( Read more... )

you know how most people have new years resolutions well I have a summer resolution...by this summer I resolve to be skinny and cute again..I have gained weight and I hate it...I feel like blimp...okay so I didn't gain much but I am a small person and it bothers me...so I shall hit the lame apartment gym till I am happy again!!

I hate being alone is that I stress myself out about things that I don't need too...my roomates are gone for a week and in their absence I have made some fun plans and started to stress myself out...I think I am going to get out of the house....I over think things when I don't have people around to talk to

when times were simpler....like high school...I loved going to punk shows and thrashing in the pit to great bands like the circle jerks and propagandhi (haha kelly)....I had been with the same guy for years and wasn't worried about looking for love...I worked at the movie theatre and enjoyed all the movies for free and only worked for extra money ( Read more... )

I am being stupid and I need to stop this right now!!!! I am already going against what I said and I am pissing myself off

of the upcoming holiday....corporate bullshit day as I like to call it I would like to reflect on my love life...this will be my first valentines day alone since I was 14 years old...I moved up here with all these fantastic ideas that I had found the most amazing guy and we were going to have one awesome adventure after another....even if those ( Read more... )

to get out of this funk I have been in for months...I don't even think my friends have noticed but I have not been myself lately...I don't know if its depression over how my life is now..the fact that no matter how hard I work I never have enough money or that my relationships always end in terrible ways...but I am determined to find me again...for ( Read more... )

when I think of this year I think of struggle...with school,with money,with guys,I hope next year things will be easier...next year I hope to find a great job, get back in school, and just learn that just being me is fucking rad...I am glad I moved....sorry Tampa but you would have destroyed me I am sure....my first new years out of Florida and I ( Read more... )

I broke my mothers heart...I know I did...but she deserved to know how what she did in the past made me feel...how I never forgot....how she tried to avoid it and pretend it never happened....but I won't let that happen...I'm sorry...she tries to tell me what a fuck I am...I have to show her she isn't any better