I need this away time....I need to objectively think about everything going on in DC...I can't believe he called to fight with me b4 I had to get up at 7am for a 12 hour drive

I try to replace him...with going out...with other dudes...with anything I can think of...but when I sign online and I see the same girl that broke us up is still commenting on his page...it kills me...I tried washing dishes and cleaning to take my mind off it...I tried having a couple beers to help me sleep but all and all it still hurts...deeply ( Read more... )

so I got two new jobs!! one at hard rock cafe and the other at a fancier place called gordon and biersch...I am not sure which one to keep just of yet....one encourages me to be different while the other wants me to cover it up but the latter would make me more money..I guess it comes down to what would really make me happy...in other news it might ( Read more... )

I am slowly but surely starting to hate life and everyone around me...I am disenchanted with everything...I feel like since I moved everything in my life has fallen apart....the holidays start really soon (the 5th) and I don't even feel like celebrating...I have to drag myself out of bed everyday b/c I don't see a reason to get up...I hate everyone ( Read more... )

*karens bf died on saturday ( Read more... )

I am done with drama....somehow I got myself involved in a whole bunch of drama without even trying....I listened to a new friend tell me how my boyfriend had wronged me....considering she was one of his best friends I listened and she held me while I cryed and gave me the advice that I should break up with him...I did...I mean what she said was so ( Read more... )

thank you philly for such a crazy time!!! I got there on halloween and went to this thing called draculas ball...on the way there Nadir and I shared a bottle of sailor jerry and he dosen't remember drinking in an alley...smoking cigarettes in the subway or peeing next to a bush and not behind it which was hilarious...when we finally got there (b/c ( Read more... )

a childhood friend of mine is getting married!!...its so wierd to me..I don't even know why but it freaks me out...I have known this kid since I was 3 and we are the same age...I guess it just wierd that we are in total diffrent places in life...he is getting married and I am not even close to being ready for that kind of thing...shit I can't even ( Read more... )

my heart is broken.....why can't one boy just fucking not cheat on me....do I suck so much that I drive guys to sleep with other chicks??? I think I am a pretty fun/cool chick but I guess I am wrong!!

my head is soooo messed up...I love him...I am in love with him but our relationship had a million problems! When shit was good, it was amazing but when it was bad it was fucking scary...he didn't call me all yesterday and didn't answer my phone call today...I have a feeling that it is actually really over...there are other things in my life ( Read more... )