I don't know up from down. I mean I love James, but what if? I'm almost afraid to have Kyle come to my bday party, I'm afraid I'll hug him, and he said he might have the urge to kiss me. I've liked him since freshman year, but that was for a shallow reason, as I started talking to him I began to like him for who he is. What if I did hug him, and he ( Read more... )

I regret many things. But the one that has been brought to my attention reecently, makes me really wonder what if? What if I had broken up Nikki and Kyle last summer? I mean I know I have James, and baby I love you ok? So please James if you are reading this, just know that its just me thinking, and don't worry about it. But really, I remember ( Read more... )

Ok. So I was supposed to have a sweet 16 on my birthday...this saturday!!! But since 3/5 of the original 5 I was allowed to invite were busy, we replaned it for the 5th of august! But! (yes there is more) I also got to invite a 6th person. His name is Kyle. I've been friends with him since freshman year, and at the beginning of this year we got in ( Read more... )

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OK so we went to the beach on Saturday...Mom, Dad, James, and myself...James was still here most of Sunday, so I didn't update then ^.^ Here are some of the pictures I took....a few of them anyway. Captions will be above the picture. Once I get the pictures here I will put in detail what we did...to my memory that is ( Read more... )

So basically I've been in a creative writing slump. I hadn't written any poetry since..well FOREVER. But today I was influenced with inspiration, from all the wrong places. It won't ever get typed, or read by anyone other then me. But yeah. So I might go to the beach with my parents and boyfriend for a day, if I do i'll post pics.

♥ Ari

I've never been so tempted to do it in my life. I was blowing off some steam, pissed off at mom for not answering her phone, pissed off at myself for putting working on my truck before talking to James, basically just pissed off at the world for my own stupidity, knowing that at this moment I could have been in a movie theater with James watching ( Read more... )

So I've been thinking. About the whole "love" thing. I mean I've gotten to the point where I trust James enough that I say it to him, and I know I mean it. But does he mean it the same way? He is always saying that he wants us to last a long time, but I really don't want to lose him. I almost feel like I am going head first into a sheet of ice ( Read more... )

Just so ya'll know. I HAVENT FALLEN OFF THE FACE OF THE EARTH! I STILL LIVE! yea! (?) lol. I've been finding it easier to write an actual Journal *has a heart attack* I know its...unusual. I have found it easier cuz normally mom gets online from the time she gets home from work to the time she goes to bed. And I never really think about it in my ( Read more... )

week 1 of summer break:
weather: Mostly crappy. Had a couple days of sunshine, but otherwise its RAIN
People I've hung out with: My boyfriend (like 3 days as a total), and the people I do D&D with like 1 time ( Read more... )