I dunno what I did. But I am sucessful at pissing people off. I don't know what I did. I have lost my closest friend. She was my world, and it happened cuz I let little shit get to me.

So the humid heat we have is making everyone cranky. And now mom is bitching saying that we can make our own food, not realizing that it'll make the whole house warmer, its currently 91 degrees in the house >.<. So anyway. I guess I'm just screwing up a friendship by not telling a person how I feel, because you get mad when I do tell you Tika. OH ( Read more... )

I give up. I get yelled at for telling you whats wrong, I get yelled at for writing about someone, not just you in a DIFFERENT journal. What do you want me to do? Keep shit locked up? FUCK YOU ALL! I give up. I'm done sharing any feeling. Maybe I'll just go make a new one, and not say what the ID is. Have fun finding me bitches.

Grrg. I'm still confused. But not about the James thing. I'm almost positive I can believe him. For the 2 of you who know my other account, I'm ranting mostly there. Its nothing against thoese who don't know where the account is, its just that no one from school knows its there, so no drama can be created. So yeah. I may be going to his house ( Read more... )

So the dance was last night. It was fun. I had a blast. And he said it again. I did somethings without thinking....I didn't fuck him....thought about it...but didn't b/c we were at school.I feel safe and comfortable wtih him. but when is it too safe/comfortable? I'm afraid of falling on my face again. I wanna tell him really I do. But truthfully ( Read more... )

Ok so I went to James' house yesterday till hunter's saftey started. I had fun. But because of something he said I've been thinking alot. He told me twice that he loved me....but when I said please don't say it unless you mean it he said "why wouldn't I mean it?". The only thing that keeps running through my head is that the last time I believed it ( Read more... )

I know I complain a lot about stress, but I seriously feel like I have too much on my mind, and b/c I don't trust anyone to tell them how I feel I find it easier to just write it here. I hate telling people whats on my mind b/c I feel like I may be weighing them down with my own problems. Tika I know that you trust me to a point, but you have your ( Read more... )

Ok so my Sunday was a little embarrasing. I was at Safeway with my mom and boyfriend, when I started my period. Mom had nothing no tampons no pads nada. So she and James went down the tampon asile while I ran to the Jeep to see if we had anything there...she gave him the money and asked him to please buy them for me. He did it with a straight face ( Read more... )

Ok so here is whats been bugging me ( Read more... )

Its too much. I've gotten to the point where I have what looks like a zit (actually called a sty or something like that) on the inside of my eyelid from stress. Obviously its just too much. I'm not gonna spill, but its just too much.