diana's flight was cancelled bad mishap, so she drove down to VA instead, and nowfortunatly got to see Dave  which she desperatly wanted, and cried, and complained about. My stoicism came through, and when there was a will, she found a way!!! lol i'm right, again! woo! and then, i locked myself out of my car, a horrible mishap, but heather had my ( Read more... )

so everyone's been saying pretty much the same thing i've been saying for a long time. I didn't write one long entry, but if u read chronologicly, i've been thanking everyone for everything, and saying sorry, and realizing different stuff. There's just one last thing i need to say. there's been great times over the past four years, and this is all ( Read more... )

i erased this entry like five times already, because i keep thinking about what to "say" and "not say." thanks to someone who somewhere deep down cares about me, i've been forced to grow up. i'm done playing the victim. i'm done whining about stupid shit like my grades. i'm done with the fucking drama, for real. i love all my friends, and i do not ( Read more... )

"Butterfly ( Read more... )

i messed everything up. idk why i tried to reach higher. i hate who i have been. i can't stand what i've done... i can't wait to start over in college, if i even get there... i want to be someone new, someone different. i wanna be the guy i always wanted to be...

i've seen things you'll never see ( Read more... )

"Move Along ( Read more... )

the title of the entry seems like a good title for a book i will write. I had the most amazing hiatus tonight! i've been thinking about the past a lot. heather wrote a rather depressing college essay which really triggered my thoughts even more than the realization that this is the last of the last for high school years. Mrs. Dellanno once said, " ( Read more... )

So, if heather won't say it, i will... i'm a pretty decent b/f... so far, the competition has gotten heated up, and i'm winning because she knows i cna't concentrate if she goes too far... lol but its been pretty even... today she mysteriously has no car, so i was going to take her home, and i ask, "am i really taking you home?" and she said, " ( Read more... )

i'm really pissed/angry because i'm closer than ever to getting fired. There is a lot of bullshit i can't stand at work. I used to love best buy, but thats a bunch of bullshit. they pay isn't fair, and the managers suck. I developed myself, and there hasn't been anyone i can really point to and say brought me ne where except maybe joe, but i don't ( Read more... )

tonight was the best night in a very very long time. Any time that i spend with heather is fun, and i love it, but anytime in which there is two or more people from our wonderful group of friends, its going to be great... when kerstin's around, its awsome!!! kerstin called me, we end up not going for coffee, but the mall, and i actually let her eat ( Read more... )