haven't been on here in a while.  Trying to navigate but having a difficult time finding stuff and people and blah.... oh, well.  I don't really need a journal anyway.  And everyone I'm interested in I can talk to in person...or facebook.  ha.  I guess I've gotten over the whole blogging thing.  I'm too busy, for one.  If I could figure out how to ( Read more... )

Reading over my last entry.  Forgot I even wrote it.  ha, it's funny: not really.  It's ironic because things have not gotten better and I think I want a divorce.  Actually, I know I want a divorce.  Hmmmm, we'll see.  Yeah, I like the idea of just me and my baby.  Then some day I can find someone who is more compatible with me.  We're not ( Read more... )

I feel so distant from my husband sometimes.  I wish I knew how to fix it.  Especially this past year, it's like we don't have much in common.  Blah.  I know every marriage has its ups and downs, but I really hate being in a lull like this.  It sucks.  And worse, it's not like I can even pinpoint what the problem is.  We're both faithful to each ( Read more... )

After I eat, I am going to the library to make some noticeable progress on my phantom paper.  It seems like I've been working on this for too long and yet not long enough.  I should get it over with.  Now is the time.  It's Spring Break and it's going to be over in a flash.  Kind of like life.  Ha, how morbid is that?  I'm listening to Bartók.  I ( Read more... )

The hunger is beginning to make my hands shake.  I am hungry and yet not.  Blah.  I will eat something soon.  People are, at times, overbearing.  Therefore, sometimes I do not like to be around people.  In general, I don't care for most people.   Good thing I have books and music.  And that's about all for now.  I should eat something.

to get things done.  And to think I almost took a nap instead.  But I drank some coffee and now I am cleaning and making plans to get some work done this weekend.  I go to the symphony tonight.  That will be my treat for working hard today.  Earlier this week I had a mini-breakdown because I couldn't finish my Symbolic Logic quiz.  Those quizzes ( Read more... )

So it's been a while.  I did have a miscarriage.  That whole ordeal is over.  Now it's business as usual.  Writing the final draft for "Art of Reading".  I enjoy that class a lot.  For some reason it took me a little while to come up with my full interpretation of this short story "A Distant Episode."  Probably because I wasted so much time chasing ( Read more... )

Went to the doctor today for my first ultrasound to see how far along I was and turns out there wasn't a heartbeat.  I'm having a miscarriage.  It's really disappointing but I'll be o.k.  It's probably something genetic that didn't line up.  One in four pregnancies end in miscarriage in the first trimester.  Too bad, I was looking forward to ( Read more... )

pregnancy.  Yep, I caught it.  It's crazy.  I still don't fully believe it but it's true.  I have an appointment tomorrow for a bunch of tests and blahblah.  The military requires pregnant women to attend this stupid meeting about pregnancy.  And then they try to force you to stay with the military hospital.  I really rather have a civilian doctor ( Read more... )

Might have some potential bombshell news.  We'll see.