more negativeness all around.

i hate that its snowing. and that theres nothing to do in the town of beloit. and that im a horrible student. im pretty jazzed about next semester though. im probably going to take mineralogy, creative writing, spanish, contemporary african politics and something else. should be ft's.

so last week just plain sucked hardcore ( Read more... )

im listening to the chris walla cd right now, and i love it more the more i listen to it. its a really simple cd, but all the songs are so solid musically, even though his voice isnt that strong. its a good whole cd, there pretty much arent any bad songs ( Read more... )

im feeling very whatever. in a pissed off way. probably because im tired of being drunk with absolutely nothing to do. i dont know what the hell other people do in beloit, but it cant be that interesting. my friends here are starting to annoy me in small ways, probably because i spend too much time with them. whatever whatever. fuck this. im mostly ( Read more... )

i often forget that college is voluntary. i actually don't have to be here, i want to be here. i think. its hard to know sometimes. i always thought that college work would be inspiring. but its still mostly just going through the motions. this is brought on by the fact that, through various facebook wanderings, i discovered that this guy suddenly ( Read more... )

fuck fuck fuck homework. this week has been ridiculously busy and odd.

another weeekend gone by. spring break is gonna be here so soon, and after that its less than two months until school gets out, then ill go to nevada, then hopefully maybe bolivia, then sha-boom, summer. hells yes. i think the next four years of my life are going to speed by.

i really miss people from home right now. im so busy during the week that i dont have time to notice it. but last night i had some fuzzy dream about some sort of epic adventure with serena, jonah, walker and lucas, and it felt so normal again. i'm going home for a doctors appointment on tuesday, but going home is never the same even, because the ( Read more... )

i still wonder if something could have been.
im so so so tired and grumpyish.