WoOoow its been sometime since I last wrote here! So much ahs changed since then. Jess is dead and i can't move on from it. I just don't see the point in life anymore. I don't know how stable I am and thats what worries me about mine and Rus's relationship. This year started off wonderful, got horrible and than just became a really bad soap opera ( Read more... )

the yeah yeah yeahs are pretty amazing

I am un-inspired by everything and everyone. i look forward to sleeping and that is all. In dreams you create your reality, or unreality. i keep on contradicting myself and its driving me crazy. i am losing control and I don't know what to do ( Read more... )

jessica give me a call

why am i questioning myself? Why do I put so much thought into a life i can't stand?? I am back to this low depressing mind set. And why? I have my best friend back in my life. My sister is on the right track again. I have a really good friend that i work with and can depend on. I have a great friend down in another country who has opened my mind ( Read more... )

i am stuck in the middle. I feel like i am keeping her secret only so she doesn't hate me. I wish I had more evidence to support my belief, but i am going on intuition and I believe that my friend realizes her crisis but is not strong enough to pick herself up out of the deep hole she dug herself into. I need to tell them. She needs help and I do ( Read more... )

*the wisdom of insecurity* by alan watts

there is no happiness wihout unhappiness, ups and downs in life

for pleasure we must experience pain and suffering before gaining that potential happiness

life, just like happiness, is temporary

there is no proof of God's existence, no logical meaning

men are unable to live without believing in some myth, some ( Read more... )

i find myself immersed in this greate gray cloud of drama sadness and depression. i have met some rare people who have opened my eyes to a life I never thought existed. i am grateful for them. they have made me stronger and less naive, and less accepting of the negative things. thank you guys although you don't have a livejournal, i am thankful for ( Read more... )

making a choice is all we really have in life thats close to freedom ( Read more... )

i am kind of sick of everything going wrong in my life. i am in the process of correcting my life. of course i am not trying to make it perfect, perfection doesn´t exist. but i want to get to a point where i don´t regret waking up. Buddist say that you should wake up each morning and bless, whatever God, that you have another chance to exist and ( Read more... )