Yesterday, I found myself on a suprise trip to the cemetary. It's been almost a year since my last visit to my mom's plot. It made me feel like a horrible son. Dad and I looked stood there for a few moments talking, and thinking back. "April 8, 1999" was the date on the groundstone. She would have been 48 years old. I was only 11 when it happened, ( Read more... )

Have you ever wondered if theres someone that you could talk to for just a whole week straight? Thats something I've always wanted to try. I just don't know if there's that many people I could talk to that long. Is it humanly possible to become so caught up on another person's being, and for them to get so caught up in you, that you had that much ( Read more... )

My writing is anything but stellar. There are so many things I'd like to say, and say them with a thin mask over their meanings. I wish I could explain the fleeting crushes and long-standing feelings, or the out of proportion exaggerations and the to-the-point truths. On Saturday, I spent 4 hours with some people I barely know, and some I used to ( Read more... )

I guess all of you who read this are close enough to know some stuff about why I am the way I am sometimes. Some of you know already. Hopefully I can trust you enough to not go telling everyone around you. I'm screwed up, first off. My life started on a downhill slide one day, and kept going. There was a time when I beat myself up, cried, and ( Read more... )

Well, as I sit here with a bloody nose and a spinning head while breaking rules and regulations, I'm gonna crash. Things are "looking up", note the quotations. I'm feeling fine, and possibly dandy at the same time. I think I've given up a hope that I let get beat up too long. There's a hole right in the center of my being, judge that wherever you ( Read more... )

I'm feeling sick right now. I don't want to go back to school. I have no reason to look forward to it anymore. I want to leave GCS. There are people I would miss, but I know when I step in the door, there are things that will cut me to the bone. I need to find more friends, preferably some close to home. Some that I could call my best friends. I've ( Read more... )

So, I'm back from the beach, which was a pretty nice escape. I rang in the New Year by watching the ball drop, and then my sister promptly turned it back to Halo 2. About 1 AM yesterday morning, my brother called and decided to invite me on a walk on the beach. I guess thats what too much celebrating does to you. Anyways, I've been looking for some ( Read more... )

I'm anxiously awaiting the New Year. I want to see if it will be better than the last, or if the world will end, or whether we'll start developing a stereotype of the futuristic world. I want to fall in love with someone, just like I fell in love with the girl sitting in the corner of the restaurant today. Its time to get out and go places. It's ( Read more... )

Everything is goin pretty well, except for an ear infection and a pounding headache. I'm hooked on this show called Red vs Blue. I got Napoleon Dynamite, Anchorman, and Elephant today. I hope this ear stuff goes away soon, its so annoying only being able to hear out of one side. Besides that, the wheels in my head are scraping around, so something ( Read more... )

After getting over my mental ailment, I'm feeling great. I had an awesome Christmas, like I hope you all had. I've been playing Halo 2 online for the past 3 days, which is much more fun than I thought...you meet some interesting people there, especially the ones cussing you out for kicking their butt. I got plenty of gift cards for Christmas, which ( Read more... )