ok guys. im' pulling a nora. if u want me to add you, tell me. im making a new lj cause i think its time to move on and just add 1 number to the end of my current lj username

i was in another world - maybe it was hell - i don't know. the earth was scarred by war and fire. there were fires burning everywhere, but they were freezing cold and it burned my soul and mind. there was no soil on the ground, no plants or animals. no sun. it was snowing and it would never stop. it had always been snowing. in places where i could ( Read more... )

i've gotta go to akira today...don't want to at all!!! my friends are sitting here and they are hella stoned. i hope they get caught. i stopped by when i finished my route and they're watching king of the hill and cracking up. i just wanna kill both of them. well i gotta get home so that i can get ready. GOD! I dont' wanna go. but w/e
later

well jasmine, guess who knew something? oh wait! i know! i did. yeah my great-uncle got in a motorcycle crash. he's gonna be fine. he just broke some ribs and got some scrapes and bruises. he's only gonna be in the hospital for a few days so he can get patched up and monitored. i guess what happened was he was going around some bend on the road and ( Read more... )

i don't want to go to school today. i might just leave at lunch or something. i didn't pass my test for akira and now i have that added to the list of shit that's pissing me off. gre-eat. why am i updating before school? nothing has happened in the 15 min. since i got up, so wtf? w/e i'm going to school now. later

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IrishDrink87: why though?
the doc 570: i'm a bad person. that's why
IrishDrink87: that doesnt make you a bad person, it just means that you need to learn to let go and hope shes happy
the doc 570: you want me to let go? you wanna know the only way i'm ever going to be able to do that?
the doc 570: never ever, ever talk to her again. that's the only ( Read more... )

i hate all of this shit. earlier today i never wanted to talk to her again. i just wanted to go off on her when she tried to talk to me and say hi. my heart starts pounding every time i see her and i just want it to stop! it's like, "bill, what are you getting all nervous and exited for? she doesn't care about you as much as you think. chill out!" ( Read more... )

i just wish that we had never met. that way i wouldn't have felt that it was okay to trust somebody and tell them what i feel. and she's too understanding and willing to work it out and not treat me any differently. it scares me. nobody has ever cared about me this much, and i don't think there is any reason to. i can't believe i feel like this. ( Read more... )

i had this really weird dream while i was taking a nap. it had something to do with soldiers in this weird castle thing or something. all these people were going to the bathroom but only one person could go at a time, so i went and found this other room that was pitch black and it took 3 people to open the door because it hadn't been opened on so ( Read more... )

well i've been up since 6:15 and now it's 7:30. i'm a little tired. oh well. i had this really bad dream last night. i was being tortured because i was being a bad friend or something like that. the guy was symbolic of somebody, i just don't know who. i was lying on my back crying because he was going to hammer this syringe/nail thing into my heart ( Read more... )