This entry is going to be a little more metaphorical/physical. Lately, I see my inner representation of the world and everything I experience/understand and process in shapes. Sometimes congruent, other times warped and distorted, but nevertheless crossing over and interacting with one another, inside and outside their bounded "spaces". Depending ( Read more... )

I haven't written in a while, and since I have an essay to write I figured I'd better spend the time updating this. Things have been going significantly on the upswing lately, which I partially attribute to being able to get away from here every weekend to see my good friends, finding new music for my ears to taste, and finding out a general cause ( Read more... )

So unbelievably tired and drained. Something is wrong, but now I'm too lethargic to know what it is. I need to start ignoring things ( Read more... )

Something needs to rise from the ashes ( Read more... )

It's very quiet at UCSD right now. Everyone is out somewhere or another, so I figured I'd take time to try and reflect on everything that's happened recently ( Read more... )

Two songs are aptly describing my emotional state at the moment. Both Zero 7 ( Read more... )

Week 1 is soon beginning at UCSD, and for the first time that I've been here, I've been ok with myself. This isn't at all the awful, tumultuous mess of last year, rife with change and destruction and creation and terrifying realization. This is...contentment with who I am. Who I strive to be. And a path to realize all of this. For that, I am ( Read more... )

So far, living back at UCSD has been a strange kind of limbo. Where I live is quite beautiful, relatively speaking. We're under a canopy of pines and other such Southern California trees, and the housing facilities here are definitely a whole tier above what the dorms were. But I can't help still feeling a kind of empty wandering being here, ( Read more... )

It's the eve of going back to school (or at least, moving in). And I have some residual feelings of how I felt when I was about to leave freshmen year, but they are slowly beginning to dissipate for...something else. Some kind of absurd clarity that I can't remember how I reached or why I necessarily "reached" it. But I think I'm in a better ( Read more... )

I got my car fixed (55$ out of pocket though), and spent most of today hanging out with Skye. It was really good to see her again, she reminded me of a lot of the things that have been going right for me lately, and all of our talks and realizations have reinforced the belief that there isn't enough time to be sad right now, simply enough time to ( Read more... )