So the real reason I'm posting this is because I'm bored and everyone else made plans since my phone died earlier this evening :[ the little shit-ticket bastard, if it wasn't so useful most of the time I'd have dropped its sorry ass out my car window a few hours ago. Though I'm sure something can get coaxed out ( Read more... )

The more and more I keep trying to keep my head above water in all of the superficial aspects of my life, the more I feel like the inside parts are getting sloshed around and fucked with. Like an old steel-cage car crashing into a giant brick wall; it looks good strong and sturdy on the outside until it runs into something, then everything that was ( Read more... )

Ochem is a bastard. But dammit, I am going to do this. I am going to do well in school and I'm not going to take no for an answer. I'm just going to go as far as I can possibly take myself, because I can't rest til I do so. For the first time, it feels like I'm taking big steps within myself to assume responsibility. Let's hope this trend keeps ( Read more... )

Start of the week, hoo boy. Lots of stuff that I need to take care of, for some reason in the past couple of days it's really hit me that I have done absolute shit for actually studying and getting a good grasp on all of the reading that I've had to do. Within that same period of time, though, I think I've found at least a mainstay inspiration in ( Read more... )

Hahaha, oh dear. So I'm turning back to this thing, not only as a soundboard but also as one of the only places I can put the voice down so it doesn't harass me all the time. At least this nifty little interface is here to relieve a little of the mental pressure we all deal with from time to time ( Read more... )

Oh dear, a lot certainly has happened since I last posted. I don't really know where to begin: since the embryonic days of the apartment living in UCSD, I've moved to Pacific Beach with a great roommate. It was quite a path to get here; during the first month of looking for our apartment I was sick with strep for a couple weeks, while interviewing ( Read more... )

I can never say it enough. Sometimes I wonder if it's possible to love too much, but not that often. I can't wait to see everyone again. I miss 'em, everyone I know has seen so many sides of me, sides I never thought I would or could show anyone, or to myself. Without them, I would be powerless and isolated from all of the great and wonderful ( Read more... )

Yep, in a writing mood. Again. And just got finished with 2nd midterm for Sensation/Perception. Bitchin ( Read more... )

Loving life. Absolutely loving it. The trip to SF/SC really did wonders for everything for me, seeing just what environment my friends are in, just getting a taste for the kinds of stuff they're doing and the lives they're living. It makes me feel good, I really just needed to know I guess. My imagination kind of goes wild sometimes, and I think ( Read more... )

There's always something about the middle of winter that just brings everything to a screeching halt. Lately I haven't felt particularly overwhelmed, so much as utterly confused, terrified, scared of what needs to happen and when. The overwhelming part is just a symptom of the rest of the problems in my head. I know that I need to get out of my ( Read more... )