I haven't used this place in ages. I'm officially semi-crippled. Well it's that "invisible illness" things. I probably mentioned all that but anyway....life has its ups and downs and I think overall I'm in a better place mentally. My body doesn't agree though. Sleeping schedule is completely fucked at this stage. There are days where I sleep 16/17 ( Read more... )

So a lot has happened and nothing inbetween. I live my days in a mix between depression and anxiety over what has happened to me. I don't have any fight in me. I had a brief spell in a hospice which didn't really amount to much. When people mistake your condition for a form of hypochondria, and it's "all in the mind" it doesn't really help much. To ( Read more... )

It's been a painful mess this last month and a half. Even if someone is still the same, I just don't know them anymore. What use is it calling truces when you feel damaged by wilful and malicious ignorance? The fact that they don't know and don't care about chronic illness just makes it all the more harder. There have been times when the memory of ( Read more... )

Well the filming fortnight is over and all I can say is that physically, I just can't do it. A sign of how things were was the day after the first on-set, I was in such a bad state physically that I needed two days recovery. My legs needed plenty of rest and since I've been having health problems for much of the year in question, I just wanted to ( Read more... )

There are times when I wish mobile phones were not a thing at all. It's now become a handy excuse for your job to invade your private life. You're always there, you have no free time, you have no place to hide. Everyone is connected. People now feel lost without their phone as if without their phone, they are diminished within themselves. Their ( Read more... )

I've taken to writing on Ello.....as an exercise for myself to stop writing in an overly negative, whiny way which I feel I've been doing here....I don't know if I'm going to be successful but I will try. I will share here just in case it disappears ( Read more... )

It's crazy out there. People in Norway are dealing with a crazed lunatic or the confusion of misinformation about whether it was a Christian fundamenalist ( a crazed lunatic ) or a Jihadist group of terrorists. And THEN, Sky News thinks it's more important to break the news that Amy Winehouse has died due to a drugs overdose. It's pathetic ( Read more... )

Life has been going so fast I don't even have the time to begin where to drop off all the things I've been doing the last few months. An onward rush of so many positive emotions it's hard to take stock of it all. Just so looking forward to my girlfriend coming over to stay here for a week and a half.

Drama has subsided......well apart from my laptop dying on me. Need a new hard drive.....I'm waiting for UPS to come and take the bloody thing off my hands. They have until half past 5......and if they don't come within 3 days I give the guys at Toshiba a call to tell them to get their arses in gear. I don't fancy having this fucking war over who ( Read more... )

a) I should really get a move on if I want to do that TEFL course ( Read more... )