matthew stewart senate just passed 50$ in two uncooperative fines against me, one for postponing cleaning up approximately two tablespoons of water and one for taking too long to clean my room even though its clean and still nobody has moved in there. its spiteful and im going to contest both at the central level. serena put these at the end of ( Read more... )

the paralysis of my productive adulthood went awhile ago from defacto to legit and its been uncomfortable for awhile but its starting to get itchy. at first i was really relieved when i realized how clear it was that i wasnt going back to school last spring, or a bunch of other things, and that i could stop worrying about them. i actually couldnt, ( Read more... )

saw a serious man, finally. it was as good as the squid and the whale, though nobody around here will want to talk about it. maybe harrison ( Read more... )

hung out with annie and found it massively corrective today. after an avalanche of bad things with chappell and my dad, and just generally the same thing forever, needless to say it was a nice breeze. something about her presence is sometimes very calming and easy. also, talked to jesse, told him that chappell thinks finally what he thinks, im glad ( Read more... )

swam at strawberry canyon, think i saw someone that used to be someone to one of my old someones. was cleaning all the bedding off of the fort-bed, my old bed, then matthew's, then josh's, then carlos', found a journal that seems to have belonged to josh. so personal i wanted to cry. i have spent a lot of my adult life ambitiously building things ( Read more... )

the anniversary show at the SF MOMA is great. made me miss the russian and a lot of my art kids and something about myself that is i guess gone now or something.

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visions of hanging myself from the deck, over the infinite perfect forever colorado family cabin landscape, crying on the carpet, crying on the carpet like usual ( Read more... )

oh yeah, did you guys know about me and the whole high school thing? because shakespeare's sonnets, holy god damn.

i found this teeeny tiny purple book and it lodged itself in something in me but probably something stupid and embarrassing.