Something definitely the matter with me, but then again what's new about that ( Read more... )

I SAW SAM! I'm so excited I knew I missed her but now I know why. I still haven't seen Kels yet but that's ok. I'm sure I'll see her soon enough. So cool let's all call courtney when we're high. That's pretty frickin awesome actually. Ok but seriously just thinking. Who want's to hang out with me for a birthday thing labor day weekend. I mean will ( Read more... )

I'm making my brother a cake before he leaves. My sis doesn't leave until the 20th. So yeah. I'm making muffins for the first day of school. I like to bake I didn't realize that till recently. Idk I'm being retarded. I miss my Sam and Kels. Maybe I'll see them sometime soon. I'm not doing anything for the rest of the summer. I'm probably going to ( Read more... )

I wanted to go see Weezer. But what did I get to do instead. Fish Fry with the cousins. Which wasn't all bad. I did meet this guy. It's too bad he was 5. He's gonna grow up to be a heartbreaker. and no he wasn't related to me. I need friend time. I feel distant and definitely unloved. Family = unloved. "White people blah blah blah don't date white ( Read more... )

So good news is that yesterday had some definite highs and some definite lows. Memorable day none the less. Skov, Ben, and Josh... three guys I should def. spend more time with cause I laugh a lot when they are around and I love to laugh. K so yeah good news is i'm going to a wedding friday bu the bad news is that this means I can't go to six flags ( Read more... )

I'm free. I'm free. I'm bored out of my mind. I just got back from a nice evening out with my mother sister and cousin. We were driving around with the windows down. It smelled like summer. It was one of those moments where nothing else matters and this moment is perfect for just being. You know what I realized something the other day. I'm realy ( Read more... )

I haven't updated since I got back. I really have nothing much to say which is neither a bad nor good thing. I feel destructive I want to break something but then I want to make something to make up for the things I've broken. Huh well idk. Call me if you want.

So I'm going to P.C. Beach after all ( Read more... )

Ok so even though I am stupid I have amazing friends.
I realized that today.
Some cool guys who make fun of me a lot helped me feel good today when I hadn't when I went to bed last night.
I thank you even if you didn't know you did or didn't mean to.

To afraid
To let me
slip
To let me
fall
To let me
crash
To let me
burn
To make
mistakes
Not their
own
To let me
be
To let me
live
To let me
see
To leave me
in the
dark
So I can
find the
light
On
My own