And it's been awhile ( Read more... )

Ah good times today. Emma was in, fuckingshockhorror. Had many laughs in Latin hearing about Gerald(ine). Almost died when I stood up coz my foot was practically ready to fall off and I kept getting cramp in it. Wasn't funny unless you were Emma laughing at me. Had big talks about Hudson and fat people in maths with Emma, was funny. Got caught ( Read more... )

It's friggin freezing feezing. Started clearing out my room today. Stopped when I dropped a bag of useless crap out of my window and got smashed glass all over the 'garden'. Stepped outside for one minute literally and it started pishing down with rain. Got fucking soaked. Haha, was wild yesterday. In a fit of complete and utter disillusionment ( Read more... )

Eh. Funeral. Crying. suits. Grant. Japanese Susan, evil Alan. 2 rings. pretty white flowers. Sandyhills Place. More crying. Chapel. Crap music. More more crying. Aunt Sandra, Corey. Crap minister. Even more crying. Fully. Food like wtf? home. Fiona, Annette. crisps. blah blah blah. bye bye. vodka and irn bru. weee funny. "I remember the first time ( Read more... )

· dont really have much to say.
· funeral tomorrow.
· i feel like crying now.
· and you're not here to hold me.
· this isn't making me feel better.
· maybe it isn't even worth fixing.
· just do something to make it worth it.
· please?
· it's been 5 days now.
· it feels like a lifetime.

I should be at school. But I woke up at like 1pm. I dunno why they let me do that.

Niaouli tried to eat my foot and gave me a dirty look when I pushed her off.

Nightstar knows there's something wrong. She keeps looking at me and miaowing. She knows her daddy's not coming back.
And I dunno how I'm going to do this but I will.

my grandad's dead

could i have had a less coincidental day?
got on the bus this morning afternoon, at the forge Lisa T got on and sat beside me. Was quite fun just chatting really. got in, blah blah blah, seen Valiant blah. Whilst watching an advert for healthy living, I ended up thinking about dicks. I also ran into a shop (under the impression that it sold guns) ( Read more... )

..banging my head. No time for mourning..Going to see a movie with a bunch of people. Quite probably there will be a few couples there and I'll be reminded of Demola coz I always am when he's not there. I didn't really want to go but then I realised it was pointless just sitting waiting on the offchance that he'll phone or anything. I loved going ( Read more... )