the appartments almost all put together. everything except for my room, that is. eventually things will be finished. i just want to at least get a bed that doesn't deflate within 10 minutes ( Read more... )

life is dizzying with progression.

finished up at cici's
starting at smokey bones on the 11th
moving into the appartment on the 13th (at the latest)
hopefully getting my license any time now

I just hope things will continue to work out well.

sooooooooooooooooo ( Read more... )

so. I'm struggling.

'Tis of the essence of life here,
Though we choose greatly, still to lack
The lasting memory at all clear,
That life has for us on the wrack
Nothing but what we somehow chose;
Thus are we wholly stipped of pride
In the pain that has but one close,
Bearing it crushed and mystified.

eventually I'll be satisfied... right?

Fuck.

I know what to do. I've actually gotten started.. I just end up falling back into it again. bad habits die hard.

ever since their break up we had started spending more and more time with people (guys) that inadvertently degraded us and put us in a position where the only congenial attention we recieved was when we innitiated any stereotypical female attribute. Gradually we succumbed to turning ourselves into the very thing we had took great pains in ( Read more... )

what's even more pitiful is that my heart won't let go.

so this past weekend started out a disaster and ended.. well, pretty nicely.

I miss my sisters so much! I need them closer...It's amazing how little strength I have without them around.

I saw another side to him..

I think I'm starting to peice together this paradox...

my tolerance for alcohol has withered... i'm glad.

I'm looking in the wrong direction for self fullfillment. away from myself ( Read more... )