I forgot this place is a bunch of acquaintances and hardly any friends.  Got tested last night.  I knew that if I drank it wasn't going to be the best night.  Getting called 'boy' and almost jumped by two drunk fucks for no reason sucks.  Second time it's happened...1st time friends had my back, that time, people just watched.  This place is fucked

So annoyed.  Always angry, always upset, always stressed.  I don't understand why I can't be happy anymore.  Why do I need other people to make me feel happy with myself?  I use to have it figured out...and could stand myself, but now I'm always angry.  I don't feel like doing anything at all.  It'd be awesome to call in sick to life so I could ( Read more... )

Today at work, the dishwasher machine was not functioning since the hot water broke.  Hand washed the dishes, but then the sinks broke and that was quite the situation to figure out.  It was straight outta a kids comedy.  Very stressful day since that was the start.  Good thing I ate before work ( Read more... )

I really don't like hurting people's feelings.  I've never been good at deciding what to do at these moments.  I'm pretty sure I'll regret my decision either way.  A night of non-alcoholic fueled conversations and a night of solitude might make my head explode with some sort of loss and doubt.  There are pros and cons.  I'll focus on the bigger ( Read more... )

My parents never cease to amaze.    Went from trying to be extra helpful, to not trying to help at all.  I didn't ask for a cent last month and this month I do and they freak.  Originally they were gonna give me 200 dollars a month, hence why my mother started working over time and now they don't want to help at all.  I don't understand them.  ( Read more... )

Oh my I'm turning 21 really soon.  Trying to have a party at Katrina's spot.  Party/show...it could be a really good time.  It will be ( Read more... )

...and then there's a relapse.  That'll work itself out I'm sure.  Work is way tight and so is the house.  Trying to have a Fiesta Friday...maybe Fajita Friday then Fiesta junt.  Friday is that Gnara junt, but I hope people would still like to come here.  Dress in spanish attire and drinking spanish beer or eating spanish food.  It'll be fun ( Read more... )

I have a tight house and a job. Things didn't work out, which sucks. I'd like to at least get an apology accepted and a hug. I can't stand to think I have an enemy. I don't like that whole situation at all actually. My mind has been a little to occupied to actually put much thought into it. I keep trying to find someone who's about to sprout ( Read more... )

This is really stressful, but one thing at a time is making it less. I just hope a year from now will have me at a better place then now. It'd be nice. I know it's not the end of the world or anything, but this is what I want and I'm working towards it...but I can only do so much I feel...but it's not true. I can do more. Just need to speak up ( Read more... )

I don't crumble under pressure I deny it and stroll.  My drive should be a bit more crazy but there's so many distractions and good things around.  I'm trying, but it's not hard enough, if I was trying it'd all be straight.  It's all boogie, I shall be able to overcome and I will get through this fine.  Enough help is available and enough options ( Read more... )