A Internet Confession

[the_magical_boy]

Everything's been going downhill since the final full week of May. Instead of beating around the bush, I'm just going to say it

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[jaded_jacqui]

"I'd rather see myself in distress than the both of us."

BAD JAROD! This is how you get hurt, and the worst of it is you bring it on yourself. What the hell makes him deserving of peace of mind? Just because he's having an identity crisis, having a hard time coping? He screwed you last time, didn't take your feelings into consideration at all. I don't care how hard this is on him, that doesn't mean he should get to drag you through this again. You're gonna help him through this and he's going to hurt you again and I can't stop you. But I'd be a bad friend if I didn't tell you that putting him first again is a stupid idea.

[the_magical_boy]

I know that I'm to blame for it this time, but I can't resist helping someone--anyone--who genuinely reaches out for help. Yeah, I'm a bit pissed at myself, as well as him, but I can't act on those feelings. I don't think I've really learned how to act on them. For me, it's instinctive to internalize everything just to spare others the pain. I'll be doing this for the next two months...until then, I'll let him walk all over me.

Hopefully, when he comes back from college, he'll have matured and actually learned something about relationships and/or friendships. And I say "hopefully" because I won't be around to see it.