So I pretty much hate volleyball. I hate the fact that I sit on the bench for the ENTIRE game while the rest of the team plays. It's even better when coach throws in a rude comment at me, becuase that makes me feel even more like crap. I sit there thinking "why I am doing this? I could be doing homework and actually be doing something productive ( Read more... )

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"And I'm still here waiting there
To catch you if you fall.
I don't know why I care so much
When I shouldn't care at all."
(more patheticness :-) haha)

"If I had just one tear running down your cheek ( Read more... )

"I want a lover I don't have to love ( Read more... )

Let's just say this... I'm so over it, all of it. :-D

P.S. She can have him.

"It only hurts at first but then you'll find someone to give you everything you want..."

So today was a much better day. Atleast I felt better today. I feel happier. I still have feelings for JB, but I'm pretty much over it. Now I just want to have some fun. I'd like to meet another guy, but I'm not desperate for a guy. I don't even know if I want to date anyone right now, I have my hott girlfriends and my awesome guyfriends. That's ( Read more... )

"Remember the time you drove all night? Just to meet me in the morning. And I thought it was strange you said everything changed, you felt as if you'd just woke up. And you said, 'this is the first day of my life, I'm glad I didn't die before I met you. But now I don't care I could go anywhere with you, and I'd probably be happy ( Read more... )

So today I was going through my emails. I read some old emails between me and JB. It was kinda sad to remember those times and then think that they wouldn't happen again. I'm struggling so hard to get completely over it. And at times I feel better about things. It's just... weird? I can't picture myself with anyone else. And eveyone tells me "well ( Read more... )

I want to die...

Oh yea, JB AND KAYLA ARE DATING.