Right when I think things are getting better, they aren't. It sucks. I think I'm over him, but I'm not. I want to so badly. I think "well God has a better plan for me to meet someone so great that I can't even imagine". Then I think about JB and I get all sad again. WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF? I'm so freaking dumb. There's something else that I've ( Read more... )

And once again... it hurts.

Well today has had some good parts and bad. It's definirely better than all the others. Last night was the first night in almost 2 weeks that I didn't cry myself to sleep. But what's weird about it is that I had a dream about him and her together. I can't remember what happened anymore, I just know they were together and it broke my heart. But ( Read more... )

Today I did one of the hardest things ever. I told him that I didn't want him to call me anymore. I know tomorrow I'm going to be regretting it. But I figured I trick myself into getting over him. I'll just try to think "oh well he's just on a trip" or something. I'm thinking I might even right fake letters to him and just not send them. Atleast I' ( Read more... )

I would give anything just to be able to spend one more day with him. I want him back so bad. I can't begin to describe the pain...

So he broke up with me... again. And this time it is definitely worse than the first. I'm always depressed. I can't stop thinking about it. At night I stay up just crying. WHY AM I SO PATHETIC? I wish it could have worked out. I love him so much, but that doesn't matter because he has already moved on, which hurts even more than him breaking up ( Read more... )

Finally, I feel so relieved. No more stress for me, and that feels so amazing. We're back together and I'm so happy. I can't wait to see him in July! :-D
<3mary beth

I JUST WANT HIM BACK! Is that too much to ask?

So now he wants us to still be friends. It's going to hurt so bad, and I don't know when I'll be ready for that. I've been thinking about it all day. I went to the mall with Kensie and Kyle and I sort of felt like the 3rd wheel, but I know that I didn't like that when a friend would hang out with me and jb and think that they were the third wheel ( Read more... )

What do you do when the one person that you liked more than anyone in the world, that you cared about so much, that you just always wanted to be with doesn't feel the same about you? I'm so clueless and what's going on or what I should do. I'm so broken right now, and I hate this feeling. The feeling where your heart is so broken, and you have that ( Read more... )