im pretty sure im getting rejected. wtf. ... angst angst angst angst...

that order, syllabi and classes, make me very happy. like really really happy. They just calm me, and make me feel like everything is all right in the world. but they have to be about openness and ideas. otherwise i am very unhappy. sigh. see how life works ( Read more... )

wtf...i'm not sure i even know what to say...

that is all.

i got on the phone with dani today, and we started talking about the job search. Pretty much what she said is that if I want a full-time job then I need to be prepared and devoted to giving 40 hours of my time a week to finding that job. She also encouraged me to do a lot of things like strategizing and networking, and to overall up my game. I ( Read more... )

Sorry for a long, disorganized post guys, but I don't have time to write anything more. This pot was written just after my therapy appointment today at Easton. I went to therapy because my employer offered the services for free, and am going to talk about my ex-boyfriend Brian, how he affects me, and how I can learn from that and move on in life ( Read more... )

I just noticed this as I am sitting in a cafe trying to reach over them to type on my laptop, while sitting indian style on a couch. My bra also seems tired of holding them up, and this worries me, because I keep thinking to myself " Jesus, are my boobs getting that big, do they need a new bra already?" This should not be happening.

Thinking about my life and what I want to do is confusing. and not fun. lately i find myself getting sad and anxious over random things. i think its a killer combination of not having what i want right in front of me or being able to know it, and having to do so much work to get there. I keep on having this fear that at the end of the day, even if ( Read more... )

Do not read yet! Draft is still a work in progress, and the current copy is saved in msword ( Read more... )

I am not lost. I am a woman with a direction. Always remember that.

As many stir fried veggies as you can get your paws on with lean meat. period.

sooo, good, and no indigestion afterwards.

tee hee :)