ok, so i talked to pat for the first time in a while last night. part of me is telling me that that was a bad idea. because now, i just miss him even more. i miss sitting at the gas station for like 5 hours and just talking about anything and everything. i miss saturday nights at his house. sitting on his deck just talking, playing video games, ( Read more... )

i don't know. i'm happy.....really happy....but i'm also sad

i don't know why i'm sad

i don't know if it's because i miss him so much

or if it's because of what happened a couple of weeks ago

i'm happy for the most part

but it's this little bit of sadness that is bothering me

i just don't know

Ok, so I'm pretty much back to my old self, and I'm really happy. Don't get me wrong, I'm still a little sad with that whole thing that happened, but I've come to the conclusion that it's just not going to happen. Does it hurt me? A little. Does it make me upset? A little. Will I get over it? Eventually. But right now, I'm happy, and that's all ( Read more... )

Ok, so things are getting better. I have yet again fallin for someone who I will never have a chance with. I'm not as upset about it as I thought I would be because I'm used to it. I just wish someone, anyone, would give me a chance. I'm not asking for much. But oh well, the ones I fall for know what they're looking for, and I'm not it. Oh well, I' ( Read more... )

I'm over the whole being sad and depressed thing

I just want someone to give me a chance, but I keep falling for the ones I will never have a chance with. I just wish I could fall for someone I do have a chance with.

I just want to be happy

I am done with not being happy.......

I just wish I could tell you how I feel

I just can't handle this anymore
I don't know what to do
I can't take it anymore
I need this to go away
Please, make this go away
The pain is too much to handle
It just won't go away
No matter how much I try
I'm not going to make it

Ok, so I was all ready to have a nice day off. Well, Helen woke me up at 12:30 this afternoon, and she told me that the damn kid in the gas station called in for the night shift. So, since she said she couldn't get anyone else, I did it. Well, everything was fine. It was going great, although I was bored out of my fucking mind! I don't know how ( Read more... )

I love it when I get to hang out with Emily. I just love it. We have so much fun. I just love how we run out of things to do like 2 hours before I have to drop her off, and it doesn't bother us. Tonight was awsome. Hanging out with her and Dan. Great. I loved it. The only bad thing, is everytime we hang out, it just makes me sad when I have to drop ( Read more... )

Fourteen Signs of Your Soul Mate ( Read more... )

My feelings just won't go away. I'm sorry, I can't help it. I know, I'm probably a big idiot because I can't let my feelings go. I just can't. I'm trying so hard, and I've tried in the past too, but it's not working. I can't help it anymore. I don't know if I should continue to try to get these feelings out of my head, or if I should just keep ( Read more... )