Cindhu/Rose: I DON'T know which one of you is writing this entry, as much as that equates with an admittance that I know neither of you well enough to be able to tell. But that's right, it doesn't matter. I have just so much empathy and sympathy to offer you because of a very very stressful, emotionally taxing situation I've been in over the summer that sounds pretty similar to yours. Your entry made me cry. It was so crushingly human--to want to break it off with someone who isn't good for us, yet be so impossibly attached to that person that you simply can't bring yourself to do it. To tentatively take the first step, and then retreat in a cold sweat because you quiver at the mere prospect of living out the rest of your days without ever feeling that person's touch or hearing his voice again. To continue to subsist on a relationship in which you gladly take whatever morsels of affections he hands your way and to be torn up into shreds because of it. Oh man, I KNOW, and I have only this to say, which you've probably heard a
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Rebecca and Julia, thank you so much ... it was one of the worst weekends I've ever had and I needed advice more than anything. You guys were absolutely there for me, and knowing that meant so much, more than I can say. Things are a lot better than when I wrote the entry - I think we're going to try to work through it, try to fix the things that went wrong, for now, at least. I don't know what beyond that, but we're both going to try, because there was so much good in our being together that we don't want to let go of that. I love you guys ... I hope I can help you like you helped me ... I will always always be there for you guys. =) And hopefully things will be really good for me by the time I see you over break!!
Well, I'm jumping on the bandwagon late here, but I have to throw in my two cents.. which start, of course, with much love. I am so, so sorry that you had such a terrible weekend - because I know that even if you're sure it's the right thing, that doesn't make it any easier. I hope talking things through works if that's what you want - but please make sure it's on your terms! From my own unfortunate experience over the summer, I know that it's not going to be a good thing if it's on his only!
In any case, as Rebecca said, you do not deserve to be miserable with or without him! - because whatever happens between the two of you, you're still going to be the Rose we know and love, who is passionate, kind, smart, ... and strong!
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thank you so much ... it was one of the worst weekends I've ever had and I needed advice more than anything. You guys were absolutely there for me, and knowing that meant so much, more than I can say.
Things are a lot better than when I wrote the entry - I think we're going to try to work through it, try to fix the things that went wrong, for now, at least. I don't know what beyond that, but we're both going to try, because there was so much good in our being together that we don't want to let go of that. I love you guys ... I hope I can help you like you helped me ... I will always always be there for you guys. =) And hopefully things will be really good for me by the time I see you over break!!
love,
Rose
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In any case, as Rebecca said, you do not deserve to be miserable with or without him! - because whatever happens between the two of you, you're still going to be the Rose we know and love, who is passionate, kind, smart, ... and strong!
Love, Rachel
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